Renny_383
Legacy Name: Renny_383

» More Than A Memory «

I couldn't breathe and my entire body trembled in terror at the thought but I couldn't just stand there and watch anymore. I couldn't tell myself that everything would be better tomorrow knowing that it wouldn't. I drew in a jagged breath and held it. You've got this, Renny.

"What would you like for breakfast, Nikolas?" I'd slid to my feet and folded one arm a crossed my chest while the other dangled at my side.
I could tell he was pondering the question as he zipped his pants up. "I think pancakes and bacon sound good."
"I'll bring it up when it's finished." With that, I took my leave.

My body seemed to know what we were going to do even before I'd made up my mind, as if I were on autopilot and it knew to put one unsteady foot in front of the other and descend down the staircase but as soon as I hit that bottom stair, I was in control again. Again, I drew in an uncertain breath and held it. I glanced in the direction of the kitchen and then to the front door, my freedom, that was just a mere twenty feet away! Without another thought I bolted to the door and struggled to undo all of the locks and chain locks on it.

"What's going on down there? Am I going to have to punish you yet again, Loren?"

As if it were possible I began to panic even more, more than I thought was possible as my trembling fingers struggled to undo the last latch on the door. "Come on, come on!" I whispered harshly to them and -- finally! I'd gotten the last one undone!

"What the HELL do you think you are doing?!" In all of my panicking I hadn't notice he'd reached the bottom of the stairs.

"Getting as far away from you as possible!" I swung the door open but he slammed it shut and spun me around. I didn't even think twice about it before I rammed my knee as hard as I could into his groin and as he stumbled backward I got the door open again and forced the screen door open, where it slammed against the side of the house as I quickly made my way down the stone steps to the sidewalk and then down the street to Speez' house.

» Down The Rabbit Hole «

I didn't stop to think about what I'd just done, in fact, I didn't stop until I was standing in front of their front door. With a bit more force than I'd intended, I knocked on their front door.

It was only a few moments before I could hear the large deadbolt being unlocked and the door opened to reveal Speez' older brother. "The fuck do you want?"

Nervously I glanced over my shoulder in the direction of my house, but I knew he wouldn't dare come after me. Not in front of the neighbors. "I-Is Speez home?"

"The fuck if I know. Do I look like his mother?" He leered.

"No." I simply smiled. "Do you mind if I come in and see if he's in his room, then?" He shrugged his shoulders but walked out of view, leaving the door open, which I assumed was his way of "inviting" me in. "Thanks..." I mumbled as I shut and locked the door behind me once I was inside, before heading upstairs to Speez' room.

I didn't waste time and, instead of waiting for him to invite me in, I knocked once and then opened the door and slipped inside, giving him a crooked smile. "Hi..." He had that same stoner look he always had on his face, and he got up as I walked over to him. I didn't say another word before I laced my arms around his shoulders and buried my face into his chest. Finally, everything hit me at once and I shuddered as I inhaled deeply.

"What happened to your back?" He used the same monotoned voice he always did, though there was a hint of worry in it.

I pulled away from him and turned my back to him. "My dad did it." I snorted. "Dad. He isn't a father. He hasn't earned the right to be called 'dad'." I could feel the anger building up inside of me. This time, I couldn't hide nor hold it back. "What kind of sick FUCK would do something like this to their OWN daughter?!" My tone had raised, just as my emotions did and my hands roughly gripped the sides of my head as I doubled over. "I JUST WANT HIM TO STOP! I JUST WANT HIM TO LEAVE ME ALONE!"

Without saying a word he walked over, gently took my hands away from my head and pulled me into a tight hug and I, finally, broke down into sobs in his arms. "I just want him to leave me alone Speez. I just want him to stop." I sniffled. "I've always done my best. I don't think I've done anything to deserve this..."

Hot, stinging tears were cascading down my cheeks and he pushed me back slightly to look up at him. "Listen to me. You haven't done anything wrong. Everything is going to be okay from now on, I promise."