Gin
Legacy Name: Tyrannus

I know that when his light goes out, the show's over.
You know how people say 'the best is yet to come.'? That's it. He's it. The best that had me waiting for so long. The best after which I know it will never be as good again.
I wonder, really, what's the purpose of existence when you know, that you've seen everything this world has to offer. You've seen its worst and lastly, its best.

How come only those who can't have forever are the ones that can imagine it best?
The boy I was toying with actually broke up with me because he couldn't imagine us being together forever. We were on the same page there. He told me he couldn't imagine what it would be like. So he broke up with me to find someone whom he could imagine being with forever. Funny how they won't have forever. Maybe he wanted someone he could pretend together with. It's hard to speak of forever and always if your partner actually has all the time he wants. And you don't.
I'm not sad he left, amused if any, because I'd have left him rather sooner than later anyway.

Then I met him. Lan. Streetartist, flashy, energetic, maybe crazy, definitely charming as hell. So not my type. So totally everything I wanted.
So totally not immortal.
Funny, how with him, I finally was able to imagine forever. Just a bit. I still had no idea what forever really ment, but I knew, surprisingly, irritatingly, that it would be alright with him always by my side.
And of course, I can't have it. Forever is really just something humans made up to comfort themselves with. Where the concept of eternal has no meaning and no consequence. They dream about forever, then they die and don't have to worry anymore.

I worry, lately. Because behind his eyes I can see forever and I know it will still be there when he's long gone. Forever will always be there for me, I will always be there. And without him, I'm not sure I want it.

No, I'm sure. I don't want forever without him.

I'm that kind of persont that takes whatever life has to offer. I did have troubles with acceptance when life decided to offer him to me.

He has a lot of energy he's willing to direct whichever way, not paying attention to morals and the like.