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Annemie has a minion!

Amy the Snowflaik




Annemie
Legacy Name: Annemie


The Bloodred Devonti
Owner: Ewok

Age: 15 years, 5 months, 3 weeks

Born: October 7th, 2008

Adopted: 15 years, 5 months, 3 weeks ago (Legacy)

Adopted: October 7th, 2008 (Legacy)

Statistics


  • Level: 1,003
     
  • Strength: 105
     
  • Defense: 35
     
  • Speed: 22
     
  • Health: 45
     
  • HP: 45/45
     
  • Intelligence: 62
     
  • Books Read: 62
  • Food Eaten: 0
  • Job: Head of Competitions


Chapter 1

This is too much for me
And I start to run, run and run.
Well aware that I cannot run away from everything that makes me want to run.
I push my legs to the limit and run faster, my lungs beg for air, my heart begs for a stable peaceful life, and my head begs for silence.

Knowing that it will be hard to please them all, so I keep running.

Never thought that I would stretch this so long. Not the running...
How did I stand this for so long, how could I carry this so long?
Something that looked like a wonderful relationship, ended bitter and without love.
Without giving myself time to get over this, I stumbled into the next mess.
In the meantime I tried to be there for my friends, family and the enormous pressure of school and my future.

I keep running, my heart finally got used to the fast pace. I feel the little stones underneath my hooves, when I turn my head and look behind me I see a cloud of dust. I love running!

I made a mess of it, I over estimated myself
A flash back reminds me in a hard way, that I'm only a devonti, no supernatural powers.
Will I forgive myself that I was so na�ve to believe everything would become al right? Was it na�ve to think my feelings would come back? How could I stand the touch of him on my bare skin? I shiver and coldly realise that my desperate attempts to save my relationship left deep cuts.


It's too late to change something to what I did, it isn't too late to figure out that I did what I did. I should understand myself or at least try to understand myself. How else am I supposed to carry on? I do not want to make these mistakes all over.

I drown in my thoughts and slow down, until suddenly I hear a lot noise, I look up and see that I run through the woods, I hear a sound, I look around, suddenly scared until a familiar voice says "So lost in thoughts?" I look behind me and I look straight into the eyes of my friend Bram.

"You know why I am lost in thoughts..."
"Yes I do" He answers and he comes to stand next to me.

We sit down in the middle of the path, a little red haired glade devonti, next to a cream anyu.
"We'll be alright Bram, both of us" I say, not quite sure that would actually be true
"Yeah someday" he says on a hopeful tone.

Bram and I went to a meadow a bit further
We went lay in the grass together, the long grass gently waved in the wind.
I'm a glade pet, I belong in nature, this thought randomly came across my mindBram somehow managed to find a cigarette in his fur and started to smoke, he slowly blew the smoke into the air.
"IEUW SERIOUSLY THIS SMELLS BRAM" I shout and go lay on his other side.
Despite that the wind blew the smoke in another direction, my eyes started to burn. I looked into his eyes , he looked back and stopped smoking, he mumbled a sorry.
We stared up to the sky together and I sighed.
"What?" Bram asks
"I wish everything was as easy as this." I answered silently.
"Yeah, now that would be nice!" Bram concluded.

The two friends didn't have the need to talk much and Bram's company soothed my pain.

A few hours later
"Shouldn't we leave" Bram said, watching the sun disappear.

"Yes we should, still got stuff to do." I answered.
The friends their ways separated and they each ran to their home.

I turned my world upside down
I said goodbye to Bram and started to run again towards my tree. I ponder, quickly visit a friend or not?
I decide to go to my tree and get some rest, it was a emotional day.



Chapter 2

I thought I would be okey, I would be fine
But after a few hours with him the truth started to tear me apart, I tried to hold myself together, my inside was shaking and screaming in agony.
I cussed silently and shook my head, so it finally got to me. The pain I waited four days for to hit me finally strikes.
I'm not used to giving up, I rarely give up, but now I have too for the sake of our friendship despite my heart telling me not to give up.
A fight , brain tells me to get over my emotions, heart tells me the contrary.

I have to go through this fase, I have too. I know what’s right.




Chapter 3

I find myself running again, as usual nowadays, running on a place that I don't even know of how I got there, and not knowing what I'm running towards.
The confusion tears me into pieces, what does he want from me? Confirmation? Does he do all this just because he's flattered? Did he change his mind? Is he always like this?
Questions rise up in my head while I run towards where my hooves take me.
Is this life? Permanently running from the mess in my head, or permanently running with a mess in my head?
After a long time of running I arrive in a city area, houses pass in blur, when I stop I find myself in a city garden, in front of me sits a popoko. She looks at me like she knew I was coming.
"How did you know where I was running towards? I didn't even know it myself" I ask the popoko. The popoko called Nele looks at me and smiles serene, "I know you needed me."
I shake my head and some flowers fall out of my fur "Why Nele?" I try to say, but the tears start to come up.
I look into the eyes of my friend and she looks back at me in silence.
The nice thing in friendship is that you do not always need a lot words.
Nele looks at me while I cry, her tail brushes trough my fur, like she wants to say, "I'm here, don't worry".
I lay in the sand crying, Nele watches , she silently says "You know there is nothing I can do".
"Nobody can Nele, apart from me, but I'm tired of pushing my limits" I answer with a broken voice
"I know" Nele answers, she clearly realises what her friend did the past two weeks.
"I'm breakable too Nele" I whisper to her.
"Me too" Nele sighs.


Chapter 4

For once I find myself walking instead of running
Although I would want to run, the heath stops me.I'm supposed to be inside, hiding from the weather, but I need to be in movement to think.
Yesterday I was with him, I enjoyed every second, but it was too short.
I had to say good bye, a painful good bye.
Today I walk here, sun shining on my fur, the copper colour looking more copper then on a dark day....thinking about how much I'll miss him.

Chapter 5

Laur told me to come to the woods. How cryptical...woods, it might have been better if she told me which woods.I run through the second wood today, hoping that it is the one she means, my paws are dirty, my fur is full with even more leaves than usual. I hope she can see me coming, because I'm dressed in camouflage, as usual for a glade devonti.Good thing Laur is more clear in a environment like this, spectrum kora's do not exactly blend smoothly in the woods. And I'm right, while looking around i see a white dot in the distance. I run towards the spot, hasty, and tired of this confusing hide & seek game.

When I get closer to the dot, I see that a kora hanging upside down in a tree, 4 tails hold her to a branch, the 5th one she's using to scratch behind her ear.
She doesn't seem to notice me until I stand straight under need her.
"MIE" she squeaks and in the excitement ,her tails forget to hold on to the branch.
Bam, there I am, in the woods, under the weight of Laur.
"Uch Laur, get of me." I moan.
"Okay." And she rolls of me.
I look into her brown eyes, I notice worry.
For a few moments we gaze in each other’s eyes, her expression changes and she says, "You miss him".
I don't even have to answer on that, she knows me, she understands how I feel.
"Let's get going" She says with a challenging smile on her face.
"What are we going to do?" I ask slightly worried, I don't like surprises.
"Something fun" she teases back.
We stand up and she takes the lead, we walk for a while , teasing each other, my fluffy devonti tail tickling her, her 5 tails poking me.
After a few minutes she says "VOILA, we arrived at our destination".
The tune of destination unknown randomly starts to play in my head and I look in front of me, a small pond... with Mallarchy's. "MALLARCHY'S" I shout as soon as I get them in eyesight. Without even saying something , we together start to chase them at the same time.
Feathers everywhere.
"I know you like ducks...& fish" she says , and she winks.
"Lets do it?" I ask her
"Yes, lets do it" she answers.
We both start running into the direction of centropolis, a very very big trip, and so far.
When we arrive hours later, in the middle of the night, we drop dead at under a tree at the end of the woods, about 5 minutes from centropolis.
We have a nap until the sun rises and awakes us for a wonderful day full of adventure.

- Unfinished chapter

Chapter 6



The soft scent of grass wakes me up from this nightmare, or do I have to say day mare.
I'm laying with my face in the grass, I collapsed after Laur gave me a wakeup call.
Not a real wakeup call with a phone, but she shook me awake from the dream I projected into my mind.
I kept telling myself he would be mine, but now I realise, he won't me mine,
He never will be,
He will be someone else's.

I mean nothing anymore to him and he removed me from his life and whatever I try , he keeps distance.
I kept telling myself it would get better again.
But Laur woke me up, the news ripped my heart out of my body, I collapsed and hit the hard soil.
I sigh, finally the pain of a broken heart.

I hear a sigh next to me, when I slightly turn my head I look into Laur's face, full of regret.
"I shouldn't have told you this." she says me.
"Not true, I'm grateful that you told me this, who knows how long I would have been stuck in this dream." I say softly, trying to keep my voice even to make sure I wouldn't start crying.
I look at Laur and realise, we all know this pain.
And tears start to run down my cheeks , down to my snout and there they drop softly on the sandy soil.

Chapter 7

I feel water all over my body
Pain
Agony
It's tearing me apart
AAAHHHH, I scream and cry more
Pawns pull me on the dry
"Standing in a fountain isn't a solution." Says someone, but I'm too upset to recognize the voice
When the pawns let me go I drop on the ground, cold stones.
I cry , tears flow down my snout.
I'm not sure how long I cried, all I remember are the worried eyes on me when I opened my eyes.
I look around me Bram, Michiel, Nele, Tom, Laur, Sandy.
Thank you guys, I try to say
But Bram's reaction showed that it wasn't more then a bit of mumbling, "Shut up krullebol" and he hugs me tightly.
I was being hugged from all sides.

I try to curl up in a ball.
Ouch, pain
I open my eyes and hurt my side to a table
Where the hell am I?
I lift my head, huh, a lap?
"Hey there" says nele, ah, Nele's lap.
I look to my side, Sandy looking worried & serieus, "Well someone had to take you home, she appologises"
"It's not like we kidnapped you." teases Michiel.
Suddenly a soft pawn strokes the fur out of my eyes,I turn my head & look straight into a pair of brown eyes
"hey laur" I mumble.
"Hey baby" she whispers.

"I'm sorry" I say, looking at all of my friends sitting in the train with me to escort me home.
"We wanted to make sure you would actually make it home and wouldn't jump under a train" Tom explains.
"I'm so sorry Mieps, most of us understood what he meant to you & we won't drop you when you need us."
"Thanks Sandy." & I tightly hug her.

I look to the anyu sitting in a seat across the passage, blue eyes full of worry.
The Feli next to him has an angry expression, she looks me straight into the eyes & loudly cusses: " FUCKING BASTARD".
And a tear drops of my cheek, exactly my thought.
"Great minds think alike" I grin.

I go sit next to the Anyu and lay my head against him, "Bram, didn't we once say we would be alright?"
"Yes, and we will be alright, both of us will be alright Mie, trust me." and he clutches his pawns around me and I fall asleep again.

Chapter 8

I walk around like a ice bear around my tree. Another day I spend trying to understand myself. The reason this time is, why am I so eager to take him back?
I was doing such a good job forgetting him, suddenly he comes back, and it's like it used to be.
Like he didn't forget me for 3 months, like he didn't have this girlfriend he never told me about, like I didn't tell him that I loved him
Why, why?
Just because I miss a guy giving me so much attention?
Because I still hope that he'll change his mind?
Because I love him more then I thought I would do?
Because I miss the happy buzz feeling?
Because I simply make no sense?

Whatever the reason may be, it is wrong to be happy.

I shouldn't be happy for every second I spend with this guy. He does not feel and never will feel the same way about me, as I feel about him.
Hmm, feel, or fell?
It's too wrong, to even just enjoy this happyness.
The higher you fly, more painful the crash back on earth
Self defence fails, I do not want to scratch him out of my life, for my own sake.

Chapter 9

I lay under my tree, staring to the sky
I'm out of balance.
First the news "you have adhd & autism".
It blew me away, despite that it was expected.
I just need some time to accept it.

Then today, a confrontation.
A girl said that she feels something is wrong, that I ignore & avoid her.
We aren't friends, we only polite say hi.
A girl I barely know complains about me avoiding her.
If she would have known me even a little bit, she would have known I can't care less.

I know you love(d) him, she said.
How can she know.
She just suspects that because we hang out together.
Suspects
The pain in my chest is back when I hear her words "So you are saying Laur is a liar."
She made it look like one of my best friends was the one who told her.
A tear flows of my cheek.
Laur wouldn't do that.
Haven't I been hurt enough?
She just shamelessly make it seem like my friend betrayed me, just to get the truth out of me
It has happend enough
Old wounds on my heart start to ache.

I feel hurt.
The way she talked.
It was like a knive slicing in my flesh.
Only caring about what she feels, and not thinking a single second about how the second party thinks.
Her imagined problem turned my stomage upside down.
Here I am, 2 hours later, laying upset under my tree, in the rain.
Thank you for ruining my day.
Do you really believe I want to be friends with you now?

The answer is no.
I don't want to be friends with someone who only accepts their truth.

I feel so out of balance, the convo goes through my head all over and over.
More tears flow down my snout.
Why does this upset me so much.
The wrong timing for sure.
Was it the way someone stubborn holds on to their imagined reality?
What was it?
I can't put my paw on it.

I'm disgusted with how ones from my own kind can behave.
Some don't care for the consequences, as long as they get their truth.
But really, I'll end up lying anyway.

She said that what she wanted to reach was that we would talk "again".
FAIL
You don't do that by telling me my friends betrayed me.
How long have I been laying here?
I shiver.
Cold.
Cold & pain.
Thank you for sacrificing my emotional health for your curiousity.
Thank you for walking over me.
Thank you for pointing out nearly no one on this fucking planet can be trusted.

Chapter 10

I sigh and lay motionles under a bush for minutes
The longest minutes ever
But they feel so good
Silence
A breeze
A breeze through my mind
Why?
WHY NOT?
I scream WHYYY
I simply can't understand it. Why not, WHY WHY WHY.
I draw a line with my pawn in the wet sandy underground.
Frustration rages through me.
Agony
And the terrible emotion on the moment you are clueles and don't understand it anymore.
That's it
I'm clueles
Clueles & frustrated, thats what I am.

Chapter 11

Laur her tails start to nudge me.
"MIEPS" she whispers under her breath and she subtly points to right.
I follow her eyes and ...oh dear god
hmmm
"Tasty" , I whisper back to laur
"Eyecandy for you dear" she replies
"definitely" I conclude, keeping my eyes on him.
Laur pokes again, this time pointing to Michiel
We both watched him silently, watching him pretending he is alright
He captures our glances and his mood changes.
"I'm worried Laur." I say
"So am I." She says.
"But he'll be alright." she continuous
"It will take a while." I conclude.
"Hey ladies, we have to go to class." Sandy shouts.
We both leave and go to class.
"Oh hellooo who we got over there" Sandy says, eyeing the dark haired stranger in front of the class room.
I lick my lips in reply. Hmm, what would his name be.
I look at him with curious eyes
"He looks like Rowan" notes a voice my head
"He looks like Rowan ,Laur. "
"hmm yeah, you are right. As long as he isn't like rowan it's fine. He looks like a soft guy."
"Hmm yeah, he looks like a real sweetheart, makes me even more curious."


Note

This is a never-ending story by the way, unless I die. Unless I get bored



Annemie in straight human facts

Born 29 october 1990
Hair color Hazel brown with a reddish shade
Eyes Hazel brown

Interesting details Insomniac, Adhd'er, Autism spectrum syndrome

Most important person in life Maria Louisa, her grandmother

Never going away without phone,ipod, glasses

Favourite song snuff from Slipknot

Loves Cows, Bathducks, Minimalistic designs, doing impulsive things, photography ,traveling

Hates Needles, unpredictable situations, depending on others

mostly known for harsh (rude) comments

The treasurechest explained

The orange items: I love oranges, the juice, the way they look, their texture, their scent and orange is my favourite color
The chocolate cube I adore chocolate & live in the country of the chocolate
Box of pasteries I'm a pastery addict.
Pumpcow Cows are my favourite animals.
Autumn nesting dolls & Pile of autumn leaves I'm a autumn girl
The camera Photography addict
The birthday bag I am one of the few people who doesn't hate aging but who loves what a older age brings. So my birthday is a real celebration.
The ploof stands for mice, Annemie loves mice
The armoured anu plushie is a refference to "the golden compass" one of the best movies I have seen, love the effects.
Beautiful ballerina elephant doll the item I fell in love with the moment I started to play subeta, high emotional value


For myself

Friend Refferences for myself:
Bram: Cream Anyu
Nele: Dusk Popoko
Sandy: Twilight Feli
Laur: spectrum kora
Michiel: galactic kerubi
Tom: scribble archan


Credit & thanks
Overlay by Cathii
Profile by User not found: damage
Tom, for proof reading

Pet Treasure


Chocolate Pumpkin Cheesecake Slice

Parmesan Cheese Treat

Pet Friends


UK
my godmother