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the Snowflaik
Jehiel
Legacy Name: Jehiel
The Nightmare Antlephore
Owner: nervous
Age: 9 years, 2 months, 2 weeks
Born: January 10th, 2015
Adopted: 2 years, 2 months, 4 weeks ago
Adopted: December 31st, 2021
Statistics
- Level: 6
- Strength: 13
- Defense: 13
- Speed: 10
- Health: 10
- HP: 10/10
- Intelligence: 104
- Books Read: 104
- Food Eaten: 0
- Job: Unemployed
Dear friend,
You know how people say that most of the stars we see are already dead? They're not. Well, sort of. If you think about it, we're seeing everything in the past. We see the moon as it was a second ago. We see the sun as it was eight minutes ago. Light propagates about three hundred thousand kilometers per second. Our eyes work out light propagating a foot every nanosecond.
So, when we look up at the stars in the sky, they are all as they were in the past. The bigger and brighter stars are closer and easier to see, and the smaller, dimmer ones are further away. The furthest star we see is only sixteen thousand lightyears away.
Stars exist for billions of years, and we are only looking at a few thousand years back in time, so every star that we see with our naked eye are almost alive.
So, stars that are millions or billions of lightyears away are more likely to be dead. But we can't see those. The ones we can't see are the ones that have died.
I think the same goes for people.
Jehiel
Dear friend,
MDMA has the molecular formula of C₁₁H₁₅NO₂. It stands for methylenedioxy-methylamphetamine, and the official IUPAC name is N-methyl-1-(3,4-methylenedioxyphenyl)propan-2-amine. Have you ever taken organic chemistry? I hated that class, and nomenclature is a nightmare, but I learned a lot about things that I shouldn't put into my body, but I do it anyway.
The nightclub I was at was far too warm for me, and probably for a lot of people, who were stripping off their excess clothing as soon as the light show started. It was a beautiful light show, but I ended up having a panic attack in the bathroom later in the night. My heart palpitated to the beats vibrating the tiles under my feet. I got home before the sun was up. That was a big thing for me.
Now, as I'm sitting here talking to you about nomenclature, light shows, and panic attacks, I'm wondering if there is something I should be doing differently. If there is, I have no idea what that may be.
Jehiel
Dear friend,
When I graduated high school, I asked my dad what I should do. He told me to go to university. I went to university because I wanted to be a chemist. Chemistry wasn't for me, so I tried physics. Physics wasn't for me, so I tried biology. Biology was worse than both of them.
After I graduated, I asked him what I should do next. He told me to get a job. I work as an application engineer now, but I'm working towards a career as a grocery store cashier.
Now that I have a job, I'm wondering what I should do next. I think the next logical step is to get married, but I don't like anyone, and for what it's worth, my options aren't outstanding anyway.
I'm not lonely, I don't think. Then again, I'm so used to being alone at this point that it's comfortable. Maybe I'm lonely, but I'm happy. I think I'm happy. I did like someone at one point, and I thought he liked me too, but it didn't work out. I haven't tried again. I just don't think I can go through that again.
We are all born to broken people on their most miraculous day of living. Miraculous, I say, because human life is a miracle. If you think of all the ways humans have overcome odds stacked against them, it really is worth thinking about. I am still here writing this. You are here reading this. There is no reason being lonely is anything special. There are 10 million million million million million observable particles of matter in the universe, and I am not significant if you think about it like that.
Maybe I'll get a cat.
Jehiel
As the light begins to intensify, so does my misery, I wonder how it is possible to hurt so much when nothing is wrong.
-Dorothy Suzama
Pet Treasure
Libra Pendant
Stars
Replica Beetle
Rave-in
Guide to Constellations
Ink Matter
Planet Surveyors Telescope
Studded Moon Crown
Dance Styles Around Subeta
DeepSpace Illusion LED Tile
Cracked White Holo-Phone
Glowstick Secrets
Void Lord Reality-Altering Pills
Rift Queen Nano Injector
Silver Skull Collar Clip
Rift Queen Toxic Drum
Sewer Beasts Graffiti Tag
Unmarked Pink CD
Vaporwave Vinyl
Miniature HLPR Bot Fried Circuit Board
Imported Lapis Lazuli Clasp
Targeting Reticule LED Mask
Refrigeration
Delphi Sunset SimuLife Chip
Blacklights and Glow Paint and You
Cream Lace Noktoa Applique
Beauty in the Frost