if i'm honest, i came back off my hiatus because i'm questioning my gender and identity. why did i come back to a dress up site of all places? well, originally, the plan was i wasn't going to come back at all and i was spending my time on gaiaonline instead. but unfortunately gaiaonline doesn't really have an option for men avatars to wear stuff like dresses and skirts, (without changing the avatar into a woman via a gender potion) etc. so i came back here. at the same time, if you visit my store, you'll see a lot of just that -- skirts and dresses. (i'm going to be really strict about what kinds of those i keep. i'm kind of doing the same with my irl wardrobe.) anything that makes me uncomfortable or uneasy (or flat out just don't want anymore) i'm selling or donating. i think i was always a trans* man, but just really, really, really fucking repressed. things that remind me of being a woman (corsets for example) depress me. i don't want to be a woman at all. main reason i came back is because i am not brave enough to try to pass or come out irl just yet. i'm kind of shocked at everything i've been realizing about myself, but still need an outlet, so subeta is the perfect outlet for me. he/him pronouns, please. quarantine has me too deep in my thoughts and i've realized a lot of shit i had repressed. i sincerely apologize for everything i've ever said and done on here which wasn't right of me to have said and done. that person isn't me anymore. that person is, essentially, dead. it's why i changed my username - i don't want to be linked to who i was before. also random fact about me: sometimes i voluntarily listen to songs i can't stand, and sometimes i put the songs on repeat. why? fuck if i know.