Username: Vennix Name: Laura Gender: Female Last Seen: 20 hours, 58 minutes ago |
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A returning user from years back formerly known as "Venus." Is that relevant? Not in the least. Stratotheus is my boyfriend of the past ~3.5 years. He must be mentally ill to remain with a very impossible me. ;3 Until I find more time to do a fitting profile, this is what will remain.
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Korin Profile to Profile | You know you can breakdown on me anytime, my sweet (just not presently through texts 'cause br0ke'd). As someone who knows firsthand how deeply any form of anxiety can affect animal-work in particular, I totally sympathize, and I really do hope you can find someone to help you through it super soon. ;_;' It's awful how anxiety can just make the simplest, most minor things that heavy straw that breaks the back of everything in existence ever. I swear my stability is best described as a game of JENGA. No joke. Chanting and everything. Time passes, little blocks are pulled out here and there, while I'm soldiering around with a tiny voice in the back of my head fighting, yelling "NOPE, YOU GOT THIS," over and over, JENGA, JENGA, JENGA, and then the tiniest little thing pulls that one little innocent-looking Jenga block out from under this insanely delicate balance I have going on, stacked against all odds, and the tower in my mind just crumbles. Like a couple weeks ago, I survived this insane day, can't BEGIN to describe it, don't really even WANT to, but the thing that ultimately broke me that day? Once I finally got home, got coffee, got settled on the couch with Vega, grabbed the remote to turn on my Pandora app on my TV, and the batteries in the remote were dead. And I took a moment to gather myself before going to retrieve new batteries. Then, of course, the first place I looked to find said batteries... well, the batteries were not there. And it broke me. It broke me into five million little pieces on the floor. The batteries did. So, yeah, NEVER should you worry about annoying me, or worry over me thinking you're stupid; that's just silly talk! I could never. Be annoyed or think you're dumb or anything like that. Seriously, that's just anxiety rearing its negative little noggin, and making no sense of yourself. I eat your ideas for breakfast. Omnomnom. It is the sustenance to my day(s). It is the spark of life, the light in the dark, the thing I reflect on, the one thing I want to focus my time on. It is my equivalent to meditation, truly; the thing I close my eyes to and WOO-SAH, OHM, HAKUNA MATATA... But I've just had so many thoughts (and complications to getting them down: hello company, super phone death, and why are you already here, Monday?) and I'm so tired and my head won't stop hurting that I haven't had much chance to get everything I want that's in my head out in a readable/coherent manner without also wanting to fall asleep where I'm sitting. It's coming out as this drivel of nonsense but I'm working on it... :'3 Srsly, senpai hasn't said anything back 'cause senpai is otherwise foaming at the mouth with the inability to function. Mostly due to ideas/excitement and love and such. Please keep thinking and sharing your ideas and I srsly need a new Haine sketch in my life because the need to draw Raine is reaching this really tall peak that I'm not sure my mind can successfully come down from without breaking something. ;u; Keep journaling, if you wish; I definitely do not mind and certainly want you to if it helps! I can't promise anything I have to say or anything I do will be particularly relieving at all for you but I will always listen and it is cathartic to write it down and get it out of your head~ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️ |
Korin Profile to Profile | In a sweet turn of events, my phone is officially dedz. XD I'll be without until a new one ships on Tuesday. Just so you know! phone blackout 2016 is underway! And sorry to get your hopes up for this otherwise tease-tastic response. ♥️ |