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Absent has a minion!

Minion the Sir Skittleton

Absent
Legacy Name: Absent

The

Spectrum Yaherra
Owner:

Bright_Shadow

Age: 9 years, 2 months, 5 days

Born: February 24th, 2015

Adopted: 5 years, 8 months, 3 weeks ago

Adopted: August 6th, 2018

Statistics

Level: 12
Strength: 16
Defense: 13
Speed: 14
Health: 13
HP: 13/13
Intelligence: 12
Books Read: 12
Food Eaten: 0
Job: Stock Worker

Don't you think you would be happy if you can avoid it all? But to be happy is to be sad, inevitably, what with life's vicissitudes and the hedonistic treadmill and all the other things working against you.

Somehow other people just deal with it. Yet you do not feel the same feelings that others do. You are not a synesthete but you wonder if peoples' emotional canvases are covered in wide, bold streaks. Emotion is the wind behind their sails, impelling them to bursts of sometimes unreasonable activity.

But where are your colors, where is the wind behind your sails? You do not feel like you truly live. You tell yourself to love things, the non-human things. But you don't. Not truly.

The things that come so easily to others, the passion, the love, the whatever-makes-them-vivid, just never came to you. You have reached the depths of addiction but did you ever love? Even in those depths, were you not occasionally seized by some nondescript urge to run away, be free, be safe and absent again?

And after their losses, so many of them bounce right back into happiness. You bounced right back into indifference. Into being fine. Into what you suspect is a surprising lack of worldly attachments for a non-buddhist.

You are not very happy. You are not in much pain. But if this is to be your lot in life, it is not so bad.