My name is Emerson Kent, and I am a detective constable (DC) at the Whitechapel police station in London, England.
When I was a child, I was just this shy and awkward boy with pale skin and soft curly hair. The nickname Emma, as the older boys often made fun of me with, was unfortunately one downside of having Emerson as the first name. However, my spirit was high, and I wanted to prove them wrong, showing them I could be as tough as a copper when I grew up. Look! Here I am, even though still a bit reserved and insecure comparing to other detectives, I feel that I am gaining confidence every day.
As the youngest DC in the team, being teased from time to time is inevitable, but I know my colleagues never mean any real harm. To compensate my inexperience, I always put more effort and dedication to each task I am given. Even though crying occasionally in the car park is necessary for me to cope with the stress, I am no where near weak.
In the late summer of 2008, a new detective inspector (DI), Joseph Chandler, was transferred here to lead our team. At first, I thought I merely hero-worshipped him, but later realized that I had fallen in love with him since the beginning. However, I told myself that things could never work out. First of all, he was my boss; and you could have guessed what people in the station would say when they sensed even a hint of such a relationship: Chandler taking advantage of me, or me trying to take a career shortcut. Then, there was an age gap of eleven years. Lastly and most importantly, I didn’t even know if he was interested in men at all.
However, no matter how hard I tried to suppress my feeling, it only grew stronger and stronger each day. Confessing to my DI was never easy or even possible. All I could do was to impress him at work, always trying to be the most hardworking, loyal, and supportive. What could I say? I adored him with all my heart, and I longed for his attention even if it was just a simple word of encouragement, a smile, or a gentle pat on the shoulder.
But none of it was ever enough, as I was constantly tormented by this unconfessed love. Envy and bitterness would fill my heart whenever DS Miles introduced a new date to Chandler. Disappointment could eat me away if I did not do a good enough job to please my DI. I was even angry at the fact that my twin sister was dating my work partner, DC Mansell. Being happy became a luxurious and distant dream. Mansell once said to me, “maybe other people’s happiness reminds you of what you’re missing.” I rarely agreed with him on such matters, but he was right this time.
The unrequited love made more and more darkness within me creep out. I started to notice my reflections off mirrors, windows, or even computer screens. What scared me was they were distorted in an unreal and horrifying way, as if I was slowly turning into a monster or something wicked. The thought of myself hurting others like those criminals I was trained to catch was terrifying. I knew this had to stop, but I didn’t know if I was brave enough to do so.
At the end of 2013, upon successfully solving yet another difficult case (thanks to DI Chandler, wasn’t him the most amazing detective?), something eventually slipped out of my mouth as I was asking Chandler to join our celebration party after work. “Sir, a few of us are going to the pub, bit of a celebration. Em…Would you like to join me…us?” Even though I quickly corrected myself, the word was already out.
Chandler paused for a second, and it was the longest second in my life. I panicked and regretted the slip instantly, fearing the damage it might have done. But to my surprise, he said “I’d love to” with a light but knowing smile. I thought I was going to faint out of the sudden surge of joy. “Oh, great! I’ll see you there!” Not until my handsome DI turned away, I managed to respond. Then, blushing like a teenage boy and still nervously fiddling with my fingers, I just stood there and stared after him as he disappeared into his office.
Credit:
Profile and story by me.
All characters/images © ITV’s Whitechapel.
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Emerson has a minion!
Joseph Chandler the Sir Loves-a-Lot
Joseph Chandler the Sir Loves-a-Lot
Emerson
Legacy Name: Emerson
The Sweetheart Devonti
Owner: Horror
Age: 15 years, 5 months, 2 weeks
Born: November 5th, 2008
Adopted: 12 years, 10 months, 2 days ago
Adopted: June 16th, 2011
Statistics
- Level: 45
- Strength: 109
- Defense: 109
- Speed: 108
- Health: 109
- HP: 109/109
- Intelligence: 0
- Books Read: 0
- Food Eaten: 0
- Job: Unemployed
Pet Treasure
Case File
Police Notebook
Private Eye: Arrival
Wastepaper Bin
Wildman Chalk
Directors Latte
Cupids Impaled Heart
Lovely Cracker
I Want You Candy Heart
Hearts
Diluted Love Bug Dose
Crazy in Love
Box of Love Letters
Secret Love Letter
Snapshot of a Kiss
Kissing Bear Plushies
White Koala Love Gift
Envious Matter
Blues Love Plushie
Loner
Police Cuffs
Police Badge
Fashion Police Walkie
Teiss Mac Leather Watch
Crime Anthology
Fashion Police Tie
Camera
Heavy Duty Flashlight
Mint Green Scooter
Dapper So Fantastic Motorcycle Keys
Swanky Shirt
Lederhosen Neat Shirt
Vanity Begin Top
Delish Nostalgic Shirt
Trans-Dimensional Blazer
Vesnali Bunny Vest
Sougara Yun Tailored Coat
Black and Green Fancy Silk Waistcoat
Purple Manly Buns Shirt
Dressed to the Nines Purple Attire
Vanity Begin Shoes
Blob Kitty Fanboy Jacket
Mountain View Natural Tee
Grave Robber Jeans
Don Loafers
Dapper So Virgil Sunglasses
Art Student Unused Razor
Dark Brown Short Curls Styled Locks
Fine Black Permanent Marker
Car Jack
Flashback Wild One Jean Jacket
Ice Bag
Tension Bandage (Hips)
Torn Blood Stained Strip of Fabric
Tigrean Machete
Butterfly Bandages
Book of Broken Mirrors
Mirror of Darkness
Demonic Vanity Mirror
Oval Scrying Mirror
Haunted Mirror Prop
Beast Shattered Mirror
Broken Ornamented Mirror
Ghoulish Broken Mirror
Shattered Mirror Shards
Hauntling
Skull
Albinowl
Melting Smile
Coal Fiend
Lantern Ghoul
Crystal Ball of Fate
Jungle Damsel Projector
Dark Witchboard
Book of Ancient Black Magic
Book of Scary Spooky Things
Hydrus Lantern of Death
Curse of Boils Tear Crystal
Organ Diary
Zemo
Hellfire
English Breakfast Tea
Box of Specialty Tea
Melon Zoom Soda
Deep Fried Cheesecake
Brewski Brand Brewski
Six Pack of Stout
Unfortunate Cookie
Wood-Fired Pizza Sample Box
Duros
Cocktail Franks
Mug of Tomato Soup
Pad Thai
Fish and Chips
Hot Cocoa and Marshmallows
Sweetheart Cappuccino
White Grape Sparkling Celebration Champagne Flute
Beer Goggles
Cute Monkey Figurine
Deerest
Sweetie Sheep
Tan Beary Sophisticated Plushie
Acoustic Guitar
All Sorts of Pudding
Gleeful Mask Rucksack