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Gilia
Legacy Name: Gilia

The

Nostalgic Noktoa
Owner:

CORE

Age: 5 years, 8 months, 2 weeks

Born: August 4th, 2018

Adopted: 5 years, 7 months, 3 weeks ago

Adopted: September 2nd, 2018

Statistics

Level: 11
Strength: 22
Defense: 20
Speed: 20
Health: 20
HP: 17/20
Intelligence: 0
Books Read: 0
Food Eaten: 0
Job: Unemployed

Having a body is hard. Learning to care for it. Learning to be tender. The weight is so uncomfortable when all you want to do is dance on the wind; disappear into the breeze...

Wanting to disappear is easy. Exhale yourself until there's nothing left. Even the parts of you that others once loved - perhaps still love - must go.

I'm so sorry I hurt you. I had to go. That life was not my life anymore. I needed to leave to find myself. Please understand. Please be good to yourself. Please, let yourself find happiness again.

Eventually I wound up somewhere strange & new. Here I found someone in the dark. He taught me to rethink the seperation that had festered between my flesh & bones. Slowly I began to dig out the blackness. He stayed by me, silent & bright. Patient. Waiting.

The final emptiness left me exhausted. I was hollow - unknown to myself. Upon his suggestion I started planting seeds in my soul. It was hard work. Sometimes I wasn't sure if I wanted to keep going. Sometimes i just wanted to give up. He pushed me with care. Eventually a garden grew.

I am heavier now; bound to the earth through the roots of my understanding. Sometimes it still makes me sick. The wind still has its voice, and on special days it still beckons me to cut myself free. Tempted as I might be, I sing instead like it does, with lips and hands that refuse to tremble anymore.

I have found my noise in the silence. It's a gentle thing, but it's mine.

And like a candle in the wind, for now, I keep standing,

keep shining,

like only I can.

name gilia

nickname little bird

age late 20s

birthday august 4th (♌︎)

race human

gender f

height 164cm

skin tone warm

eyes honey-green

likes

handwritten letters
quiet places
snow
pressed flowers
the unknown
planning / post-its etc.
light / loose clothes

trivia

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orientation unsure

affinity birds, light breeze, tea

occupation keyboard player

role the muse

demeanor gentle, creative, destructive

alignment x

build petite

mods bird tattoo right wrist

hair light brown, messy

dislikes

acting selfishly
pasta
bathrooms
sticky warmth
disorganised music
predictability
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playlist

matenrou opera - gilia
matenrou opera - kaze no tori
exist†trace - vanguard -of the muses-
blesscode - bless you
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...

hibiki

[ the burning one ]

I hurt you. I'm so sorry.

sono

[ the molten gold ]

You helped me see myself - save myself. Thank you.

akane

[ the punk ]

I hope I can keep up with you.

saki

[ the changing star ]

It's strange how two people so different can connect with one another. I'm sorry for your pain. Please, let us heal together.

masshiro

[ the living sky ]

You breathe easily because your shell is so hard. If you wanted to, could you trust? Would you truly feel the love offered to you?

meari

[ the silent one ]

No-one fights you. No-one argues. Do you feel alienated? Have you ever been just one of the others? Or are you comfortable being special? You hide your secrets well...

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