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Involution has a minion!

Left in the wake the Brokenhearted Kitty

Involution
Legacy Name: Involution

The

Steamwork Archan
Owner:

Laurie

Age: 16 years, 2 months, 2 weeks

Born: February 7th, 2008

Adopted: 16 years, 2 months, 2 weeks ago (Legacy)

Adopted: February 7th, 2008 (Legacy)

Statistics

Level: 1,657
Strength: 4,701
Defense: 4,302
Speed: 4,000
Health: 7,870
HP: 7,870/7,870
Intelligence: 2,007
Books Read: 1367
Food Eaten: 0
Job: Director of SAI

Could you tell me please.. when will the phantom that you left in your wake stop haunting my dreams and let what's left of me try to live again.. ~L

"want ya to know I love you and am thinking about you and will hopefully see ya soon. I love you Laurs"

Those words are forever burned into my memory. I lived them, I breathed them, I trusted them. I trusted you. And yet.. those words were the last .. the final exchange between the two of us before you walked away without a second glance, without any hint it was over, without so much as a whispered goodbye..

You vanished into the void, I sent my heart and soul with you. Messages met with silence, so strange at first, became the norm. And yet not once did I doubt you. Complain because I felt lost without you, yes. Doubt your word? Never. I believed it straight up to the instant that, without so much as a nod my way, you posted the song Bitch Came Back on Facebook. It was then that what I believed was set in stone exploded, leaving what little of me I'd kept behind buried under a mountain of disbelief, confusion and pain.

I cant live.

I cant die.

I cant go on like this.

The crushing reality of being thrown away after so many years of believing you and I had found our piece of happily ever after is more than I can take. I have to close the wound. But how can I when every where I look, I see fragments of you...

Tymbaa - The Steamwork Archan

"As you wave the Enchanted Hypnosis Wand in front of Tymbaa face, it requests a new name for your pet."

Involution " defined as a "turning in" on one's self, the inner path of the human soul to the self"

All of the memories that I have of you over the past years are an intricate part of my life. The heartache and confusion left in your wake is what I need to find a way to come to terms with if I am going to survive. For months I tried to sort out the things in my head.. desperate to find a way to let go of what no longer is while clinging tightly to what once was.

The truth is there isn't one. You can't have it both ways. If you cling to the past, you lose out on the present and have no future. If you live in the present and look forward to the future, you must let go of the past. I can't let go of the past with my Archans named after you and I. No matter how badly I want to keep them the way they are, how badly I want things to go back to the way it use to be, I have no choice. If I am to survive this, I have to let go.

I loved you with all that I had. I held nothing back. Maybe that's what makes this so damn hard. Without you.. I'm lost. Just.. lost. I miss you. Even now, after all this time, a part of me still weeps for you. I doubt that will ever change.

You were my best friend, my confidant, the other half of my half full glass of life.

Thank you for all of the adventures over the years, laughing became my favorite pastime once I met you. I will always hold a part of us in my heart. Be safe, be happy, and know that if you ever need a friend, I'll be around.