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Subari has a minion!

Soldier the Thanatos

Subari
Legacy Name: Subari

The

Glacier Lain
Owner:

Amme

Age: 7 years, 7 months, 1 week

Born: September 18th, 2016

Adopted: 7 years, 7 months, 1 week ago

Adopted: September 18th, 2016

Statistics

Level: 3
Strength: 10
Defense: 10
Speed: 10
Health: 10
HP: 10/10
Intelligence: 15
Books Read: 15
Food Eaten: 0
Job: Bag-and-Go Master Cashier

Maybe I am a failure, or a traitor to my therapy for it, but the truth is, I’m less afraid of dying than continuing to live like this.
So I will live differently: in absolute defiance of the unspeakable. No more battling open-ended questions, no more being terrified of the blank years and days and minutes down the line. Even when it’s impossible, truly and wholly impossible to believe, I have seen this defiance come, and when it goes, I know it will come again and again. I’ve said what I need to say here. Perhaps I am a monster. Perhaps everybody around me is as well, each in their own way. All people live on the edge as the winds blow with nothing to hold onto. Some can only look over and down as they tremble. Others close their eyes, knowing the wind will keep them cool and hold them back.This is the attention such a bad mind wanted: a story to expose it for what it is, and take its grip off of others, because it drove me quite by accident into the path of finding out exactly how to win.
I wrote this for you, for me, and for everyone like us, for the days when we cannot even relate to our own allies because they are still Different, and we are still Worse. We are all the same, fighting one battle, together. I have to do justice to this life, the sacred words to remind me who I am, to remind me that my mind does not control a thing; our minds do not define us, and we can take our lives back together without being so afraid.
On my bad days, I feel your strength. You’ve never let me run and hide. When I wonder if I’ll ever really escape this, you remind me to take it one day at a time. No matter how hard it is. Take it one day at a time until the good days return, because they can. They will.It will be a while, I know. So many decades remain, full of your ridiculous peppered coffee and morning glories, cotton and lavender, red and blue. No matter where I go, no matter when, I promise to take to the seas in search of a way to see you again.You promised. I believe you.You will watch over me.
Always.