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Misanthrope
Legacy Name: Misanthrope

The Graveyard Celinox
Owner: Evergreen

Age: 6 years, 10 months, 2 weeks

Born: June 15th, 2017

Adopted: 6 years, 10 months, 2 weeks ago

Adopted: June 15th, 2017

Statistics

• Level: 1
   
• Strength: 10
   
• Defense: 10
   
• Speed: 10
   
• Health: 10
   
• HP: 10/10
   
• Intelligence: 0
   
• Books Read: 0
• Food Eaten: 0
• Job: Unemployed

O' forgive me, society-god, for I have sinned. I am unhappy, therefore I am unlikable.

So people don't like other people because they're flawed, even though they themselves aren't perfect. We are all just walking brains, and what are brains but neurons and synapses, shaped by their genetics, experiences and environment? The reason human psychology can exist is because we're limited in the number of ways that we can react to a situation. We all behave in similar ways to various circumstances. We are human, therefore we will exhibit human behavior.

How deliberate their misunderstandings...which I too, am prone to deliberately misunderstanding. It's the fundamental attribution error, a cognitive bias that affects everyone. It is a shame, however, because even though I'm capable of understanding an individual, I can't help but judge anyway. So much of human interaction is basically one-upping each other, finding our place in our group, and though I'd like to think I don't care about how others perceive me, of course, I in fact, do. I can be insecure, and though I still judge, I am aware of the psychological reasons for why a person acts the way that they do, for instance, making mistakes due to mental errors that could be due to self-esteem, where they fulfill some sort of self-fulfilling prophecy, perhaps caused by the Golem effect, and they believe that they're just not capable. If they fail to believe in themselves, they can subconsciously make poor decisions, or they can become insecure around others and get nervous and then as a result, their mind blanks. Or, the person could simply not having eaten properly, they could be tired, or maybe they really are simply less intelligent, but if they ARE less intelligent, is that their fault? It's all very unjust.

Admittedly, for a human, I'm rather asocial, I'm seen as a hermit, but, I AM social. I am of a species that, for millions of years has formed groups, troops, tribes, whatever. I need people, though I loathe them for how they are, and I hate myself, too, because I am one of them, and I can't be better. My will, my mind, my emotions just don't allow me to rise above. True kindness is exhausting, and people are disappointing, and we, try as we might, are inherently selfish. Love usually doesn't last, and, in my case, is entirely unrequited. But, I too, fail to love people who want my affection...do I then deserve to be unloved by the person of my desire? Who hasn't hurt others? Again, where and what is justice?

People often don't care. Some do. Some SAY they do, some TRY to, some are victims to their own biases and fail to see who truly cares and who doesn't. A person could commit a terrible atrocity, but if he has good character, doesn't argue and presents himself as a kind man by sometimes doing good deeds for others, he could get away with hurting just one person, and no one will know, except for that one person. The other people see someone who is behaving in a way that is, "likable." It's easy to achieve for some people, I'm not one of them. I think I may be too honest, but I treat people equally. If a man treats one person poorly, for no reason, or no GOOD reason, and treats everyone else just fine, is he a bad person? I tend to think so, but then, how can I know who is good, and who is bad, if they're simply acting? They might treat me as a friend, go home and abuse their spouse. Well, I don't like to take risks, so I'll simply distance myself from everyone, instead of allowing myself to accidentally support someone who's morally abhorrent.

But am I morally abhorrent? If I hate, if I can't control my temper, if I go off on someone and bring out all their insecurities, something that I can do with ease since I'm analytical, am I a bad person? If I'm an alcoholic, am I a bad person? I am angry, I am hateful, I have spewed vile dehumanizing vitriol onto people I loathe, and in front of other people. I have hurt people. No, not bullied, not physically, but verbally out of spite and defensiveness. I felt there was justice in saying such cruel things at the time, but what is just in their minds? Is my opinion worth more than theirs? I like to think I'm more reasonable than the average person, but don't we all feel that way? We hold our opinions, because we think they're right.

I am hypocritical. I am bad. I am human.


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