Information
Existing
Legacy Name: Existing
The
Glade CadogreOwner:
EvergreenAge: 5 years, 6 months, 3 weeks
Born: October 6th, 2018
Adopted: 5 years, 6 months, 3 weeks ago
Adopted: October 6th, 2018
Statistics
- Level: 1
- Strength: 10
- Defense: 10
- Speed: 10
- Health: 10
- HP: 10/10
- Intelligence: 0
- Books Read: 0
- Food Eaten: 0
- Job: Unemployed
I am utterly alone.
And I'm okay with that
I dine alone, I go to movies alone, I go to the park alone, I go to the beach alone, I travel alone, I live alone. I am alone right now.
This is who I am.
I'm merely embracing one of the fundamental facts of life: that ALL people, in their minds, thoughts, and experiences are irrevocably alone. Relationships are distractions of this, which we all need. We all need to pretend sometimes. We need to feel loved and included, a sense of belonging. I seek those feelings too, but I've allowed myself to be healthily detached from others, to where I do not feel like I need them. I will be loyal, kind, giving and honest to those I choose to bring into my circle, which is very small. I stay away from "love" for all the trouble it tends to bring. I seek hobbies, new experiences and personal growth in its stead. Which in a way, romantic relationships are forms of those things. Relationships give us a feeling of identity, and something to do, and partners help each other grow, at least, ideally. But I'm opting to do all of that on my own.
This is what I know.
We will all lose our loved ones some day. Sometimes physically through death, other times emotionally, where they just don't love us anymore and no longer want to be part of our lives. Sometimes we're the ones that no longer feel love, but if that's the case, you're not really "losing" a loved one, as there's no loss to be felt there. Throughout our lives we will continually renew our circles.
That is our world.
I do not fear death, for all things will die and most of life has died before me. I do not need to be remembered, as I think of all the wonderful things that have died quietly, long ago, never to be discovered by humanity. Or, sometimes I think of the small, "insignificant" animal that dies in an alleyway or in some bush without anyone ever knowing. I am private in my life, it's something I value -- it's intimacy with my own mind. My experiences and memories, thoughts and many of my opinions are mine and my own, never anyone else's, and most people will never know what those things consist of. I will value the privacy of my own death, and would actually rather die alone when my time comes.
For now I will live in self-created, peaceful existence. You cannot take my peace.
And I'm okay with that
I dine alone, I go to movies alone, I go to the park alone, I go to the beach alone, I travel alone, I live alone. I am alone right now.
This is who I am.
I'm merely embracing one of the fundamental facts of life: that ALL people, in their minds, thoughts, and experiences are irrevocably alone. Relationships are distractions of this, which we all need. We all need to pretend sometimes. We need to feel loved and included, a sense of belonging. I seek those feelings too, but I've allowed myself to be healthily detached from others, to where I do not feel like I need them. I will be loyal, kind, giving and honest to those I choose to bring into my circle, which is very small. I stay away from "love" for all the trouble it tends to bring. I seek hobbies, new experiences and personal growth in its stead. Which in a way, romantic relationships are forms of those things. Relationships give us a feeling of identity, and something to do, and partners help each other grow, at least, ideally. But I'm opting to do all of that on my own.
This is what I know.
We will all lose our loved ones some day. Sometimes physically through death, other times emotionally, where they just don't love us anymore and no longer want to be part of our lives. Sometimes we're the ones that no longer feel love, but if that's the case, you're not really "losing" a loved one, as there's no loss to be felt there. Throughout our lives we will continually renew our circles.
That is our world.
I do not fear death, for all things will die and most of life has died before me. I do not need to be remembered, as I think of all the wonderful things that have died quietly, long ago, never to be discovered by humanity. Or, sometimes I think of the small, "insignificant" animal that dies in an alleyway or in some bush without anyone ever knowing. I am private in my life, it's something I value -- it's intimacy with my own mind. My experiences and memories, thoughts and many of my opinions are mine and my own, never anyone else's, and most people will never know what those things consist of. I will value the privacy of my own death, and would actually rather die alone when my time comes.
For now I will live in self-created, peaceful existence. You cannot take my peace.