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Nihil has a minion!

Annihilate the Invisible Man

Nihil
Legacy Name: Nihil

The

Nightmare Bhakoru
Owner:

Bright_Shadow

Age: 14 years, 7 months, 3 weeks

Born: September 9th, 2009

Adopted: 14 years, 7 months, 3 weeks ago (Legacy)

Adopted: September 9th, 2009 (Legacy)

Statistics

Level: 43
Strength: 108
Defense: 106
Speed: 101
Health: 100
HP: 100/100
Intelligence: 2
Books Read: 2
Food Eaten: 0
Job: Stock Worker

The notion that nothing, nothing matters at all anymore. That all you are and all you ever will be is insignificant.

The notion that you're just too small, too outnumbered, too busy surviving. The thoughts creeping into your mind as you stand in line, 9pm on a weekday, because you ran out of pasta yet again.

Oh how delightfully trivial, the fear of nothing that your mind loops around again and again.

You paid with your credit card, oh just get on already, be in the present where all the action is. Shuffling out of the store now. Wishing to live with no past and no identity like a retrograde amnesiac. That phrase, that 'carpe diem', actual meaning opposite of popular assumption: seize the day so that tomorrow will be better. No matter, there's always 'You Only Live Once'.

And of course you never made anything of yourself.

And then your mind idles to faded golden days. Yes, those were the highlights of your life and so you think of the days that are dead, of memories dead because everything associated with them is gone. Of high school days, of your friends and sweetheart who threw you away because they just had to know more and more until they peeled too much of you away-- And enough, the traffic light turned green now, why not think of a calm yesterday that could still be revived because you still have you and your computer. And now, think of now, your grand recipe of pasta sauce (conveniently premade, now with extra canned tomatoes) and al dente pasta (a little crunchy) and you are here and now with these nothing, these faded old objects and shabby memories and-

It's just entropy, that's all.

It's just that nobody will love you after all it was just your cold hard selfish heart and what it attracted in turn and why would you think that anything would be okay and-

And of course you'll forget this all over dinner, because what kind of a loser thinks like this? That's it, smile, yes smile, because nobody wants to hear your verbal diarrhea over nothing, yes nothing, it's always nothing you're afraid of becoming.

And besides. Canned tomatoes are simply terrible and you swear you're only getting the sauce next time.