Aeil
Legacy Name: Aeil

We met for the first time in eighth grade. He was the new guy in school. At first glance, I couldn`t help telling my best friend my thoughts on how cute he was. After talking, she left my side. Next thing I knew he was sitting right there beside me. It wasn`t until later I found that she told him, ''My friend thinks you`re hot and wants to date you.''

I could remember the first school dance we went to together. I was shy and he was nice, never pushing me to do anything which was one of the things I loved about him. Rather than dancing, we walked around the gym, hand in hand, talking the entire night. I was aware he wanted to dance, though I hadn`t a clue how. I presumed he understood that. I knew some would call it "puppy love", but I believed it was more than that.

Trick or treating was a real treat. We went out with his two younger half brothers and his uncle. We all joked around about my costume, saying that he put me in the hospital, considering that I was a ''dead patient''. I could recall seeing my first shooting star that night as well. I thought it meant more than it did, but I guess I was mistaken.

Soon after was the New Year`s party. While awaiting his arrival a bunch of us decided to walk the dogs out in the snow. Once I`d hooked the leash to my belt loop, the dog ran out onto the ice and I fell backwards, landing on the hard, icy road, laughing. It wasn't long after we got the dogs back into the house that he showed up. If it weren't for the ice on the road and having fallen once that night, I would have jumped up into his arms. Midnight came and I was asleep. Everyone was getting their New Year`s kiss and again I was nervous. Instead of waking me up he held me, kissing my forehead.

I don't remember what caused the relationship to end, but we stayed friends. I recall walking into the school building and my heart breaking when I saw him smoking. I was full of mixed emotions. My heart was broken and I was pissed he broke a promise. He knew I didn't like cigarettes, and I didn't fully understand why he was smoking. We rarely talked after that. It hurt too much, and we both seemed to have moved on. We hung out less and less and rarely talked to each other.

Moving on didn't last forever. We would up attending the same summer camp that year. His best friend, he and I broke off of the camp group and we hung out in a ditch. While his friend was being the look out, we were caught up in the moment and ended up kissing. After camp had ended, I went out of my way several times to my friend's house simply to see him. Every opportunity that arose I took just to see him. Each time it seemed that we'd cuddle, hold hands, and kiss. It was as if we were together again, only we weren't.

The visits ended, as did the happiness they once brought me. He just stopped coming around; no one really heard from him. Again, I moved on, concluding that chapter of my life. Tenth grade had started and we wound up at the same school once again. Only now, I was the new girl. Studying and keeping his grades up were of more concern for him. It pleased me for I wasn't sure how I`d deal with the emotions of seeing him again. With high school distractions I was able to suppress my feelings more easily. It came to where I believed I didn't care for him anymore.

Meeting my new best friend, high school became more interesting. My feelings were unchanged, even after learning she`d dated my ex. Today, I still find it funny. About a year after my best friend's little sister also fell for him. We were all sitting on the porch at her birthday party when he said something that's stayed with me.

"I'll always love Aeil. She was the first girlfriend I had after my mom died and she's always been there for me." I couldn`t ignore his words or the rush of emotion that filled my heart.

I have mom to thank for our first official New Years kiss. While in the store, my mom told me I was leading him on. Feeling bad, and as a way to apologize I bought him a single rose. When we got back I waited on the porch. He came out and I handed him the rose and he kissed me.

I`ve known him since 2000 and he's been in and out of my life. I`d suppress my feelings deeper and deeper each time he left. After all this time I'd be lying if I said I didn't love him because I always will.

There`s forever a special place in my heart reserved just for him. Even if the rest moves on, that part of me will always wait. And despite the last 11 years of my life being an emotional roller coaster I wouldn't change a thing about it for the world.

Profile by Yukimiko
Overlay by Leander
Original story by Lamb
Story rewritten by Natarii