Forgiveness id far from reach for someone like me. To count my transgressions would take a lifetime. I breathe sin. Everything I think and everything I do is a lie. One lie covers another until a fine web of deceit separates me from others.
My whole life is a hoax. I wear the fraud plastered across my skin in the form of a smile, a laugh, a song. Even my name and eye color are fake, but I'd do anything to hide the real me.
My whole life, I have hidden the truth, but now, I try harder than ever. And why? The one person that I ever respected or cared for, can see right through the tangle of my fibs. He can see the difference between my two faces. The damned ninja knew everything, not my past, but the real me. The defenses I built to protect myself are useless against his piercing red gaze.
I hated him for it. I loved him for it. And I was sure that he felt the same. One moment we sat quietly enjoying each others company and the next he was chasing me across town with his sword in hand.
Of course I got him angry on purpose. When he was angry he didn't try to invade my thoughts and yet I still had his attention. I knew he wouldn't really hurt me and for once in my life I felt safe. But if he really knew me, knew my past, would it be the blunt side of the sword that he struck me with? No, I'm sure it wouldn't be, because forgiveness is too far from my reach. But one can only hope.
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