Cash Shop: Ashen Memorial

An expression that barely changes. He's not cold, but he's not exactly warm either. Some say he used to be, that once there was a family, but that was long before he moved to the Darkside. People say he's with Vic now, that engineer from Ziara, but they haven't committed fully yet. Just idle gossip, of course, but why IS he holding back?

I heard there was a death in the family. Did he lose someone before? And what about his pets - all steamwork. He was given Captain as a child you know, I heard that he loved that archan! They were always smiling and playing. But when he got here, he'd changed from common colored to steamwork. You know some people turn their pets steamwork when they want them to be stronger, less…vulnerable. But Mathis' isn't somebody that's scared of things. He's so tough! Maybe he was just making his pets tougher?

Mathis: I am scared. I am terrified of losing the Captain, and Incinerator and…Vic. But I have had Captain for so long now, he grows weary, and what if I can't say goodbye when the time is here? What if I can. I thought I could handle this but it creeps upon me day by day and I find myself creating distance - help me. Help me fight my fear of losing them so I can love them in the moment. I don't want every passing day to feel just a day closer to the end. I know they will always be a part of me and I want to feel like I have given them all that I could give. It won't take the pain away when it comes but I will know that I gave the best of me to them, if only I could keep my heart open to them.

This nightmare is not what love is about.


Ashen Memorial
Help Mathis face his fear by picking up the Ashen Memorial from the Cash Shop and defeating Captain's Ashes!

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Posted by SubetaTeam

Starscream

@Lioness
I've heard that it does disappear when you use it to summon the challenger. So if you want to have it for HA and also have the challenger, you need to buy two.
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Starscream

Like a lot of others, this hit home for me. Had a 17 year old kitty I loved very much. Had to leave him behind when I left because of the place I was heading for didn't allow cats, and then when I DID want him, it was felt he was too old to get acclimated to a new place. He died last year of old age and it just felt like a gut punch at the time. It's gotten better, but he was a quirky, much loved fuzzball, and when I saw this item, it just brought me to tears all over again.

As much as I think I could probably beat this challenger, I got the item for my HA instead, as a tribute. Thanks for releasing this.
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Azzie

Freakin' ouch.
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EagleWing

Oh, it is Artful Ashes.
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Mythology

@Virus

SAME -sobbing forever- And also WHY HAVE GUNTER AND MATHIAS GOTTA GIVE ME FEELS
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Song

@DireRabbit Aww, I still give Xaya's urn a kiss and tell her I love her before bed, when I wake up, before I leave the house, and when I come home, just like before. <3 And her little needle-felt version of her from my dad and sister comes to bed (well on a desk facing the bed) each night, and comes back out to sit on the urn during the day. I hope one day I'll be better able to look on her and smile at the memories rather than crying at all the experiences we'll never have together again. Xaya was with me for 9 years, and every day with her was a gift.
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Song

I lost my cat Xaya in December, and I still cry. Just last night, I cried because I moved her favorite cup (a giant glass mug) back into the spot it used to be before she passed, and the night before, I cried because my sister had gifted us a cat water fountain, and my mom had gifted us cat towers, and Xaya would have LOVED those, and it tore me apart that she wasn't there to enjoy them. The day before that, I cried because my friend wanted me to check out a different pet site, I already had an account, and one of the pets was named after Xaya - just a couple weeks before I lost her, before I even knew anything was wrong.

Losing her has utterly destroyed me beyond recovery, and now the tears are back after just a couple sentences. Lucky that today happens to be my therapy day, eh?

@Karasu My girl Enyah is 15. I've had her since I was 14, and I have the same issue. Sometimes I just break down because I can't bear the thought that she won't be around forever. I try every day to show her how much she means to me, and appreciate every single moment with her. I hope our sweet little critters know they're family and how much we love them.
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Owlwing

I had to reread this one after taking a glance at it last night and did it bring back memories. My family and I had to say goodbye to our 12 year old pup, Angel, a year ago (it will be 2 on November 4th). She was in pain. So my mom, sister and I took her to the vet and she was put to sleep. I still miss her. Saying goodbye is always hard, especially when it is a furbaby.
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kessaria

My mom just had to take our dog to the vet’s tonight because she was suddenly and inexplicably in a lot of pain. Thankfully it’s looking like the dog just dislocated a joint that later popped back into place (she’s old and has always had joint issues, plus the vet didn’t find anything wrong) but still... this hit home. ?
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Evy

Just checking: is it safe to buy the item in the cash shop? I see about a million of those php warnings on that page...
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DarkVixen28

NO! *sobs*
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Solsticesprite

@lioness the item does disappear when you unlock the Challenger. If you want the item to have the item in a TC and the Challenger and also to wear it you will need three copies.
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Johniarty

My car is missing. This hit me hard :(
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DireRabbit

Losing a pet, especially a childhood pet, is absolutely heartbreaking. There comes a time, though, when you look upon their shrine, where you've housed their urn, and no longer cry, but smile. I still give Roxanne's urn a pat every time I pass it in my house, she lived to be 14 and came to me when I was 6.

Needless to say this resonates with me. <3
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furiousflamewolf

The art is beautiful. :o *_*
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Saix

What the heck!!! I'm crying in the club right now!!! I don't usually buy these challenger things (when you use it to get the challenger does the item disappear?) but i might have to pick this one up. dang!
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Homestuck

Thank you for destroying my feelings subeta :')
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Bren

Well.... so glad I chose NOT to read this at work. o_O Sitting here with tears streaming down my face. I think this touches everyone in some way. My girl Penny turned 15 on March 3. That's pretty ancient for a dog and I am thankful for every day I get to spend with her. She's been with me through so much- especially in the last 5 years- I dread the day she's no longer by my side. :/

@Sahara - scroll all the way to the bottom of the error messages and you'll see you can still buy from the cash shop. :)
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Squid

@Karasu
My oldest cat is going to be 19 in September. It's still not enough time.
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MoonCat83

Last year, two of our cats have died and one of them went missing. I can relate to Mathis' fears as I love my remaining cats and can't imagine life without them.
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Squid

Wowwwwwwwwwww
This hurts lololol
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Sahara

I still keep getting errors with everything on the side, ie ... Pet job agency

I can't buy anything from the Cash Shop
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Internet

My first childhood pet, an orange tabby named Tai (after Digimon) has turned 19 years old recently. He's doing fine, no issues except bad hips, but I feel like death is creeping up. Sobz
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Bren

@Lykaon @grammy @Chrissy
Scroll all the way to the bottom and then you can buy it. :)

I'm not reading this post until I am home from work. Had a peek on my break and, gah, nope... not happening! ;-;
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loopa

aww....it's too early to think about feelings dammnit!!
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Dr.Oru

Beautiful and really hits close to home.
Now to go wash my face, thx.
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METROID

I'm kinda glad for once this is an easier opponent. It's a very relatable fear for anyone who has ever owned a pet. I know it's just art and lore, but it really does a great job in making you feel something.
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grammy

Warning: Use of undefined constant itemid - assumed 'itemid' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /var/www/html/cashshop.php on line 914

I get this when I went to buy it.
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Chrissy

Still unable to buy it :(
that warning stuff just keeps popping up.
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Andrea

PETS DON'T DIE PETS DON'T DIE LALALAA NO NO. No.

It's too early in the morning for the only feel I can relate to 8(
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Cass

I just lost my 11 year old German Shepherd last week so this hit me pretty hard :c
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just2b

Oh the feels. I'm not crying; you're crying :sob:
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Ryuu


Thanks for a timely reminder of the very real possibility that I may never be able to handle having a "real" pet again. Because. It never gets better and it never. goes. away.

I mean: Never forget that life is a death sentence! hahaha. :(
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FCoD

I don't have pets but this got to me: "what if I can't say goodbye when the time is here?"

Brings back memories from 2015.
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Pluma

oh man, what a beautiful item. and a challenger i can possibly beat? dang, subeta. spot on. <3
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Lykaon

i get this message to

Warning: Use of undefined constant itemid - assumed 'itemid' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /var/www/html/cashshop.php on line 914
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Chrissy

i get this when i went to buy it the whole page

Warning: Use of undefined constant itemid - assumed 'itemid' (this will throw an Error in a future version of PHP) in /var/www/html/cashshop.php on line 914
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ulalena

Very cute and heart-touching and the spirit as a wearable is lovely. <3
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Mephistopheles

Oh, this made me tear up pretty bad.
Hits pretty close since I lost the little girl whose been with me for half my life in June, so this is very close. With a cat, no less. A very relatable fear Mathis, I can relate.
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Alexei

Damn, you're going to make me cry. Well done, but hit a bit too close to home considering I'm worried about my 6 year old Cavalier who has back issues. I try not to think about losing him but the possibility grows with every year that passes.
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Mermaid

I’m not crying... nope. ;-;
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Schneizel

I lost my little girl a few months ago. She’d been with me more than half my life. I’ll never have another cat like her.
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jensen

@StarShadow
i don't understand why you keep posting this comment? we get two challengers a month, one free and one not. you can get ~150 csc from the bathhouse each cycle, and you can quest for a few days and buy the remaining 100 csc from another user. you don't have to pay real money for any of these?
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Karasu

My cat turned 14 back in May and some days I can't cope with the fact that I'm looking at a maximum of 3-6 more years together.
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manipulation

Ye no I mean

I don't know what makes me cry harder, the story presented here or the amount of csc I need to spend to buy 6 copies of these ashen memorials
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StarShadow

Another opponent that costs cash. Darn.
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elka

this is the first time this site has made me cry like, i am defeated, shattered in pieces bawling my eyes out ok wow just........
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MarissaUnderground

This is heartbreaking. And now I'm crying.
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Muerte

I need one for Forevermore's TC. And my wardrobe. Darn you.
Ash memorial items are so wonderful, I wish I could do some of people I've lost.

ALSO KINDA RELIEVED. I can't relate too much to a phobia of death, but with the opponent scroll being "Fading Memories Scroll" I was a little worried this would be based around memories fading away and as someone with a deteriorating memory I don't think I'd handle it well right now.
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TaintedTamer

Well then. Thanks. Need a good cry before going to bed I suppose.
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Hannah66665

Well... damn.
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Lantern

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SongSparra

Holy shit! I actually welled up tears and thought how much I relate to that with my beautiful fur babies (RL ones guys, they are cats, pets on here are based on them), crap that's some awesome writing/story telling when you can evoke that sort of emotion bloody WELL DONE to the author(s)!
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youngexplorer

This makes me think of my beloved pets. I look at them and think: 4 kitties = 4 heartaches to come one day...
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Isilven

THE CEILING IS LEAKING ONTO MY EYES
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Skrett

This makes me think of my dogs. They're 11 and 10 now. I'm trying not to dwell on this fact, or the changes slowly creeping up on them. I just want to make the most of our time together. They deserve that.
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jensen

It's getting harder to remember all the little things you once took for granted... Just when you thought you were doing fine, it's reopened that old wound...
this is a mean one for pet month, i think. also i'm mad i want that as a wearable and for sorun's tc. you're killing me!
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Virus

Another item I need dupes of....

Also no I'm not crying I'm not I'm just...... I'm just.... ;-;
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Proxy

Beautiful artwork! Honestly would love to see something like that as a pet color. Like a ghost, only more ethereal and somber instead of nightmarish.
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Laurey

Ugh, I have thoughts like this sometimes too but usually I just push it out of my mind until I forget about it.

I'll just focus on how pretty the challenger art is ~
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Sirius

I am not crying...
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Jess

Stats and Loot
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