Scarz
Legacy Name: Scarz

Never be ashamed of a scar. It simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you.

Strength comes from moving forward, not looking back.

So many haters, toxic people in my life. From childhood I suffered abuse. It did not stop as an adult, I surrounded myself with false friends. I lost my identity somewhere. I had become an empty shell. My life has been full of emotional scars. Time and again I've been wounded by hateful words. I once measured my worth by those words. After the emotional bleeding, I had enough. I downed a bottle of pills and went to bed. I was prepared to not wake up again.

Someone who could care less and never called decided to call me at 2am. They said they had this feeling and called me. That moment struck me. It wasn't her reaching out to me. I knew it was God telling me that I was important to HIM. That moment changed my life forever. Immediately after the call I contacted emergency. I spent two weeks recovering in a hospital and nine months in a mental institution. It was long and trialsome.

I refused to live my life by the opinions of others. I resolved to fight. The battle was not and is not easy. I had years of wounds to heal. But, I am determined to fight to live. I made it my job to grow. I searched for therapy and consolation. It was an uphill battle.Everyday was emotionally exhausting. I had to fight my self-condemning thoughts.

Today I look back and I see I have come a long way. Now I choose friends who care and remove myself from toxic people. I'm getting stronger. It is not over, but an ongoing fight. I have determined to not give in to my pain but rise above it. I refuse to be defined by my scars. I'm a survivor.

I WILL SURVIVE

I sat wounded
Drowning in a pool of blood
My despair was great
I thought about giving up

I was uplifted
I was reminded of my worth
I chose to not give up
I reached out for help

I am healing
My wounds have closed themselves
They became scars
I am not ashamed of them

I ignore haters
They tried to make me bleed
The pain was intense
I endured the suffering

I have survived
I refuse to be defined by them
I am a survivor
I will rise above my pain and fly.

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