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the Doctor Bunny
Influx
Legacy Name: Influx
The Angelic Yaherra
Owner: nervous
Age: 4 years, 11 months, 2 weeks
Born: May 4th, 2019
Adopted: 2 years, 3 months, 2 weeks ago
Adopted: January 7th, 2022
Statistics
- Level: 54
- Strength: 10
- Defense: 10
- Speed: 10
- Health: 28
- HP: 28/28
- Intelligence: 101
- Books Read: 100
- Food Eaten: 0
- Job: Store Manager
CW: Medical | Blood | Dissociation
When I wake up, the first thing I do is find my socks. I have a bad habit of kicking my socks off in my sleep. After I find my socks, I like to fold them and place them on the end of the bed so I can go back to them later.
In the early spring, the dogwood trees bloom. They smell unpleasant, but they're so beautiful that I don't really mind. I have to ask if someone can crack open my window for me. Not a lot. Just a little.
It's still kind of cold outside, but I sit on protruding bench near the window. I tilt my chin so I can feel the crisp air on my face, and I get a faint smell of dogwood. There is a dogwood tree right outside my window. She's so lovely. I named her Morgan.
It's still too early for lunch, so I sit in the loft and wonder about what it would be like to be candle. I wonder what it would be like to be the glint in someone's eyes. I wonder what it would be like to be a bloodstain on a white shirt.
Somebody comes into my room and tells me I have to go to Group. I never know what to say in Group, but I like to listen to other people. I like to know I'm not alone.
I'm not impressed when people come into my room in the middle of the night to take my blood. It's my blood. I made it. I want to know where my blood is going. I just have to ask.
Apparently they take my blood to the lab to check for imbalances caused by my medications. Something in me tells me they're lying, but something a little louder tells me that they can't be lying, because my blood is just blood. It's practically worthless in the tiny tubes they take from me.
I'm so tired. I watch them leave my room, becoming shadows stretched out in the hall from the open door. I look out the window, and in the faint starlight, I can see the blossoms of the dogwood tree. That makes me feel a little bit better.
The bed I sleep on has a very thin mattress. The frame of the bed is nailed to the floor. There is no headboard. I had a headboard at one point, but it got taken from me. I couldn't reject it, even if I wanted to. It was my own fault, really. I have my own bathroom, but the shower is tiny and doesn't have doors on it. That's also my fault. Sometimes I can't help myself. I get so cold that very hot showers are the only thing that helps, but since it was far too hot, they took my doors.
In a perfect world, I don't think I would be here. That might be unfair to say though, because I don't really mind it so much anymore. It gets kind of lonely, though. People come and go. But that's just life. People come when they need you, and leave when they're done with you. That's the narrative for everyone, I think. Not just me.
I feel at times that my brain is flooded from thoughts that are not mine. My mind is a clear lake in early May, but when the rain comes, the meltwater surges inside, turning it a churning, foaming brown color. I don't know why this is happening to me. If I knew, I would tell you. All I know is that once the floodgates open, nothing can stop them.
But it's getting better. It is always getting better.
Split his ribs open using my bare hands, but I could not repair all of the damage.
Nicole Dollanganger
Pet Treasure
Summer Dandelions
Fallen Dogwood Blossoms
Book of Happy Rainbows
Antique Metronome
Tension Bandage (Arm)
Butterfly Bandages
Ice Bag
Bag of Blood
Regular Strength Pain Pills
Broken Spines
Extra Strength Pain Pills
White Stethoscope
Bear Calendar
First Aid Kit
Happily Ever After Sticker
White Nitrile Gloves
Spring Sunshine Sticker
Beary Best Friends Beanbag
Hoarded Books
White Variety Seed Packet
Confused Sky Sticker
Tension Bandage (Leg)
Acetaminophen Travel Pack
Small Town Gazebo
You Make the World Brighter Sticker
Empty Spools of Thread
Cool Rainbow Drops
Torn Lamb Calendar Page
Metal Best Friends Charms
The Art of Bouquet
Ibuprofen Travel Pack
Dotted Hospital Gown
For The Light
Rainbow Polka Dot Fashion Mask
Ragged Wings and Broken Halos
Blue Polka Dot Fashion Mask
Eye Exam Chart
Duality Plushie
Wishbone
Blessed Plushie
Daylight Spirit
Starlight Spirit
Finding Light in the Dark
Good Egg
Holy Water
Smol Potted Dandelion
Forgotten Storybook
Iridescent Butterfly Suncatcher
New Years Spilled Celebratory Gin
Complimentary Towel
Crumpled Towel
Conflicted Journal
Stargazing Journal
Silver Angel Doll