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Alaxandra
Legacy Name: Alaxandra

The Chibi Experiment #4423
Owner: Ashlee

Age: 12 years, 6 months, 3 weeks

Born: October 1st, 2011

Adopted: 10 years, 11 months, 2 weeks ago

Adopted: May 7th, 2013

Statistics

• Level: 9
   
• Strength: 22
   
• Defense: 10
   
• Speed: 10
   
• Health: 6
   
• HP: 13/6
   
• Intelligence: 69
   
• Books Read: 69
• Food Eaten: 0
• Job: Beach Comber

Why do they call orphanages a "children's home"? This isn't a home. This is somewhere to live, a house at best. My brother Alec and I were left here when we were only three days old. Our parents abandoned us here and we've been here ever since.

Mom and Dad didn't mean to leave us. No matter what Alec says, I know they didn't mean to. I think Mom was too young...or maybe Dad was out of work. Whatever the reason, I don't think that they meant to leave us.

Maybe they are out there waiting for us, somewhere safe, waiting to bring us home, away from the orphanage. Maybe they have a nice house in the suburbs somewhere, a three bedroom semi-detached house with a garden...I'd like a garden, somewhere to grow pretty flowers and run around and play with Alec.

But they haven't come back to get us. So now we are still stuck here. It's not fair that we are stuck here. I blame them for that. This hell that we live in, this godawful place is their fault. We aren't orphans. Our parents just don't want us. We don't deserve this place.

Alec says that no one else will want us, that we will never find new parents. We have been here longer than anyone else. No one wants us because we're not cute like the babies. We're too old for them to want us.

And even our own parents don't want us. Why would anyone else? It's not fair that we are stuck here. It makes me so angry!

It's not fair!
It's not our fault!
It's not!
We didn't ask for this life! I just want to scream! Don't blame us for this. We don't deserve this! We don't! I just want a home! I just want something better! It's not fair!

I can't help that I get angry and cry and scream. I think it annoys Alec. He's like a statue, made of stone. He never cries. He just stares at me when I cry and walks away. He gets so angry too but he doesn't cry. He just punches anything that gets in the way; a wall, a door, a person. He gets in trouble a lot.

He spends a lot of his time in solitary confinement, not allowed to talk to anyone, not even allowed to eat with the rest of us. There are fourteen of us at the moment, the most we've known since we got here eight years ago. We keep mostly to ourselves when we can. There's no point making friends. They all move on in the end. And even if they didn't, Alec pushes them away. He hits out, he acts out, he doesn't think before he speaks.

It's only that he is so frustrated. He wants a home as much as I do. Maybe more. Sometimes I think he just wants to be heard. He wants a voice. It's just not fair on him, on either of us.

Alec is so convinced that no one cares about us. He's convinced that no one wants us, that we will always be alone. He wants me to forget about our parents. I can't forget. I want to go home and be with them. I want that house in the suburbs...or even one room in a bedsit...anywhere as long as it's away from here.

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