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AvPD
Legacy Name: AvPD
The
Nostalgic IllumisOwner: POURRITURE
Age: 14 years, 1 month, 2 weeks
Born: June 1st, 2012
Adopted: 14 years, 1 month, 2 weeks ago
Adopted: June 1st, 2012
Statistics
- Level: 1
- Strength: 10
- Defense: 10
- Speed: 10
- Health: 10
- HP: 10/10
- Intelligence: 0
- Books Read: 0
- Food Eaten: 0
- Toys Played: 0
- Job: Unemployed
{ Avoidant personality disorder }
The 
Nostalgic Illumis POURRITURE
â Avoidant personalities are individuals who earnestly desire social interactions yet become immediately discomforted when another person initiates even the most pleasant, innocuous or nonthreatening of conversations with them. Few people, if any, are able to gain access to their private circle of existence. Their pain wrought from loneliness and seclusion hurts them to the core of their existence, but rather than allow themselves to be vulnerable to the "inevitable" social humiliation that would follow from their perceived incompetence and awkwardness being put on naked display, they take their silent, lonely pain and make themselves nearly invisible, resisting any life change that may bring them more openly into the public eye. While they may deeply wish for love, genuine intimacy, and greater life enjoyment or satisfaction, their souls are seen as so disgraced that they must withdraw into a private world of shame, where they can at least be alone with their inadequacies. - Millon et al., 2004 [3] âž |
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Pleasure/pain |
Passive/active |
Self/other |
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| Expressive Behavior: Fretful | Conveys personal unease and disquiet, a constant timorous, hesitant, and restive state; overreacts to innocuous events and anxiously judges them to signify ridicule, criticism, and disapproval. |
| Interpersonal Conduct: Aversive | Distances from activities that involve intimate personal relationships and reports extensive history of social anxiety and distrust; seeks acceptance, but is unwilling to get involved unless certain to be liked, maintaining distance and privacy to avoid being shamed and humiliated. |
| Cognitive Style: Distracted | Warily scans environment for potential threats and is preoccupied by intrusive and disruptive random thoughts and observations; an upwelling from within of irrelevant ideation upsets thought continuity and interferes with social communications and accurate appraisals. |
| Regulatory Mechanism: Fantasy | Depends excessively on imagination to achieve need gratification, confidence building, and conflict resolution; withdraws into reveries as a means of safely discharging frustrated affectionate as well as angry impulses. |
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| Self-Image: Alienated | Sees self as socially inept, inadequate, and inferior, justifying thereby isolation and rejection by others; feels personally unappealing, devalues self-achievements, and reports persistent sense of aloneness and emptiness. |
| Object-Representations: Vexatious | Internalized representations are composed of readily reactivated, intense, and conflict-ridden memories of problematic early relations; limited avenues for experiencing or recalling gratification, and few mechanisms to channel needs, bind impulses, resolve conflicts, or deflect external stressors. |
| Morphologic Organization: Fragile | A precarious complex of tortuous emotions depends almost exclusively on a single modality for its resolution and discharge, that of avoidance, escape, and fantasy; hence, when faced with personal risks, new opportunities, or unanticipated stress, few morphologic structures are available to deploy and few backup positions can be reverted to, short of regressive decompensation. |
| Mood/ Temperament: Anguished | Describes constant and confusing under-current of tension, sadness, and anger; vacillates among desire for affection, fear of rebuff, embarrassment, and numbness of feeling. [6] |
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Avoidants do not confront this interpersonal anxiety. Instead, they escape social encounters whenever possible as a means of saving themselves from "inevitable" negative judgments. Any event that requires communication with others constitutes a potential threat to their fragile security. They may even deny themselves simple possessions to protect against the pain of loss or disappointment. Most find that efforts to comply with others' wishes, much less to assert themselves, prove fruitless and painful. They may feel that repeated appeasements have cost them their personal integrity, leading only to greater feelings of self-contempt. The only course they know to reduce shame and humiliation is to back away, withdraw within themselves, and keep a watchful eye on any incursion into their solitude. Distance guarantees safety, but trust invites pain. [3]
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Conflicted (with passive-aggressive features) avoidants are internally discorded and. They fear independence and dependence; are unsettled; unreconciled within self; hesitating, confused, tormented, paroxysmic, and embittered. They have unresolvable angst and dissension.
Hypersensitive (with paranoid features) avoidants are intensely wary and suspicious; alternately panicky, terrified, edgy, and timorous - then thin-skinned, high-strung, petulant, and prickly.
Self-deserting (with depressive features) avoidants blocks or fragments self-awareness; discarding painful images and memories, casting away untenable thoughts and impulses. They ultimately jettison their self and are suicidal. [5]
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