Ketamine
Legacy Name: Ketamine

adelaide callahan. twenty two. female. australian. to say her life has never been easy would be an understatement - even from a young age, adelaide experienced pain that most would never deal with in their lifetime. it seemed her own body was working against her - even getting out of bed most days was a chore. if it wasn't bad enough that her own body wouldn't function, the stress and depression seemed to drag her mood down with it.

at the young age of sixteen, adelaide was diagnosed with a terminal illness - given at most eight years to live. six years after the diagnosis, and with things only seeming to go downhill from the day of her birth, more often than not she hopes she doesn't wake up in the morning. and she knows, in less than two years time, that will be reality. she has become dependent on drugs (both prescription and recreational) to assuage the pain, both emotionally and physically.

due to intense treatment, she has lost most of her hair and body weight - leaving her to dress herself with wigs and varying layers of clothes. more often than not, you cannot tell who she is; she dresses different constantly, and often pretends to be different people day by day. this is both in an attempt to escape herself, and a large disconnect from her body, life, and reality itself. she is hard to get close to - she pushes people away out of fear of leaving them behind... an inevitable truth for her. she feels she never truly learned how to love, and now it's too late - she is only made to hurt people, now.

adelaide is going blind, has tremors in episodes of varying intensity, and always seems out of it. she is more often than not dissociated - both due to mental stress and the cocktail of drugs she forces into her system on a daily basis. she has a tendency to complain about the world as if it's somewhere she exists anymore. when she speaks, it tends to be poorly articulated - very flowery, but hard to get the point across (i.e. "there's static in my veins and in my head, like an old broken TV set, and i'm just trying to see the images").

she earned the nickname ketamine after a drug she illegally required shortly after her diagnosis, which seemed to ease her misery more than any other medication the doctors could give her. ketamine is a dissociative anesthetic, often used in veterinary medicine. it induces trance-like states, while providing pain relief, sedation, and memory loss. used medically as a sedative and pain management drug. if taken at high doses, users will experience a severe state of dissociation with visual and auditory hallucinations. at anesthetic doses it produces a mild dissociative state and numbness from pain.