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"Hi, are you looking for my story? S-sorry, but my life is really long. S-so long, it wouldn't fit in this box. Seriously, you need to s-set aside a few hours to read. I'm a sex demon, and I was Lust, the S-sin at one point. I am a v-very inappropriate creature. No explicit details, but b-be aware of the theme."

some extra pictures of Damien!

Damien when he was first created with lyrics from Jekyll and Hyde

Damien with Will Wood lyrics

Damien wondering why he was born an evil demon

Damien and his big brother Croix

Damien with lyrics from The Mind Electric

Damien in the Sims 4

a meme I made about Damien

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Circles of Relationships

(It's hard for me to like Aed, because he involved himself with the Devil, with Hell, and with me, against my will. Bound to Hell, he made a deal to get back out, and in the process he became the cage that imprisoned me for three years. I was forced to be him, I was forced to lose my identity and I was reduced to being simply called "demon". In this forced demonic possession, there were a lot of times where I couldn't tell the difference between me and Aed anymore. I always had to take a backseat to whatever Aed was doing, as though he was more important than I was. Chained down inside his soul, I could influence his actions, but only could I fully take over when the tips of his ears were touched and sent me a jolt of power. Filled with rage, subjected to hearing about how I was hated with no escape, I was violent and they let me out less and less; in isolation and pain I forgot how to talk. After three years of hell worse than actual Hell, the Devil finally separated us. That was way back in 2012, and since then Aed has tried to make friends with me, and even went so far as to try to become romantically involved with me, but I don't think I'm interested after all that.)

(Zay is my favorite from the mortal world, because she is Aed's wife and the one who finally got the Devil to separate me from Aed. She was the only one who was even remotely nice to me when I was stuck, even though I was so cruel to her – something that I will never understand why I was forgiven. I was selfish and she got the worst of it because of how much she's around Aed. She tried to teach me how to be nice, right from wrong, and how to talk again when I forgot. She gave me a chance when no one else did, and if it wasn't for her I'd still be nothing but an evil demon. I don't want her to find out about the times I mess up and do bad things, because I don't want her disappointed in me. For her, I will learn, and so to thank her I gave her one of my heart beads for my hair. I also can't help but say that I love her even though I don't know what love means. Apparently, due to being part of Aed's soul when he married her, I am also somehow married to her, which freaked me out because I'm not supposed to be married. It took a while to accept it, and I have no idea how to be a romantic husband, but I'm trying for her. Somehow, even though my eros was taken away, I love her. It's true, and I don't know how or why, or even what love is.)

(Apparently, Zin is my daughter, which was a big shock to me. We really need Sex Ed in Hell, because I didn't even know demons and mortals could have kids. I mean, that being said, she is apparently the daughter of Zay and somehow me and Aed combined, like, she has three biological parents. I'm not so much hung up on that as I am the fact that I am one of those parents. I remember watching Aed take care of her, through his eyes, but I never realized she was my daughter too. Now that I'm living on the surface and know about all this, I want to be a dad to her, but I have no idea what I'm doing. I mean… with a dad like the Devil, I have no good reference. But if she's part demon, I want to help her learn about that part of herself. I really like her and taking care of her, even if she's a teenager now. I try to bond with her and go on trips with her and give her presents because she's the best cambion.)

(After being freed from imprisonment, I was living in Hell again when Aed and Zay came to visit me and brought Croix along, because he was "another demon they found" and they wanted us to meet. Turns out, it's all a huge coincidence because Croix and I sort of knew each other already, well, knew of each other. See, Croix is the Sin of Greed, and I used to be the Sin of Lust, so we saw each other at the Sin Meetings in Hell. But Croix is unnaturally kind and caring for a demon, so he offered to let me live with him on the surface. Since then, we have become brothers and I really appreciate having him in my life, even if I am annoying and he puts up with it. Before we started talking, I had no one I could tell about the things that have happened to me, and he's the only one who can understand what I go through as a demon trying to fit in on the surface, even if he is unnaturally good, like I said. I'm pretty jealous of that since I'm evil and being good doesn't come easily to me, but at the same time since he is good, he's had his own struggles being forced to be a Sin by the Devil. He doesn't really talk much about his own issues, he just listens to music instead. But like I said, I appreciate Croix, when we hang out and play video games, when he makes me macaroni and when we watch Stitch movies together. My brother is a big comfort to me and seems to be one of the only things that can bring me back when I start dissociating.)

(Grymm is Aed's sister, but also Croix's girlfriend, so I see her often now and I'm more than willing to get out of the house when Croix has her over, because I respect him. Apparently, she's the Princess of Hell who threw our world into chaos by defeating the Devil and wedging herself into the hierarchy permanently. Her actions made it so the Sins didn't have to fill quota or having meetings anymore, so that's why Croix was living on the surface doing whatever he wanted. I'm kinda annoyed, I mean why couldn't she have done that before I got demoted from being a Sin? I'd love to run free with my powers without the Devil on my back. At first I thought Grymm was quiet and mysterious, and I guess she sort of is mysterious, but she's more like regal and smart, and I realize now that she cares a lot about demons and the natural way our world works. I owe her a lot because she went through the trouble of defeating the Devil again to get control of my soul contract and the piece of my heart the Devil took away. I keep the piece in a jar now. It's nice to know where it is, but I am a little afraid to let it join me again. Apart from owning me and keeping me safe from the Devil, she keeps listening to me when I put a bug in her ear about stuff like banning Lust from my territory, using the Devil's Call to lock up all the other sex demons, and permanently closing the gate of the Devil's Cave near Zay's house. Since I'm an incubus, things used to be tense and uncomfortable between us, but since realizing how demonic she actually is, my interest has faded and I'm more respectful.)

(Lenore is Grymm's ghost cat that she brought from the graveyard to start living at the house. She liked Croix but hated me at first and it hurt my feelings. She was screeching and flying at me and literally like, haunting me. It was so bad that Grymm had to take her back to the graveyard for a while. Then one day she brought her back to try again and it magically worked, Lenore was all over me and rolling in my lap. I told them it's my cat now, which was kinda a joke but not really. When Grymm went on tour and left Lenore at the house, I stole her all for myself and now I talk to her when she's in my room.)

(I met Hannah and her friends the same way I would have when I used to work as a Sin. The difference is back then I was being a fake friend to get information, but I wanted... for things to be better, for me to be good. Though I admit I didn't approach her in the bar with simply friendship in mind, I was clear with my fleeting intentions. But I'm also honest in saying I wanted actual friendship with mortals, so she introduced me to the others and I was adopted into the group with ease. Hannah is from California, and came here for college but dropped out when she lost sight of her dreams. How sad of mortals, to have dreams then lose them. Now she's taken roots here and won't go back a failure either, and her lack of success has her bouncing around jobs. The four of us go drinking often, and at first, I concealed the fact that I was a demon from my new friend group... Until I got way too drunk and passed out and turned back into my demon form. What still shocks me to this day is that they saw that and didn't mention it and just kept being friends with me. When I brought Croix to meet them, they couldn't help but ask what that was about and everything got exposed and came out... After explaining everything they still accepted me, and now Hannah understands the context of my incubus behavior.)

(Chase is part of Hannah's friend group that I was adopted into. He and Hannah have known each other for many years now, since "before" but since I'm trusted, I'm not supposed to go on saying what that means, but they're still roommates to this day. He makes money online playing video games while people watch and donate. I would have said that I don't get it, but I also got into working online, doing... something similar, yet completely different. Even though my friends now know I'm a demon, I've still never said that I can switch back and forth between being an incubus and succubus, because I don't want to make Chase feel bad or anything. Before I say too much, I just mean that they don't know about that side of me and how I work online. Chase is just my really good friend who I got intimately close with and I get really protective of him and all my other friends too. When we all go get drunk, we try to do stunts and Chase says it's like Jackass so we try to jump off stuff and kick each other and everything. I'm really happy that he's so happy that I found Jackass funny, and he took me to see the latest movie in theaters.)

(Ross is the other member of the friend group with Hannah and Chase. Ross works in a clothing store and seems to like certain fashion brands a lot, I think he called himself a hypebeast. Other than that he's also into making food and he's the best at it in the group. He just puts a lot of care and work into what he makes and it tastes so good, but I don't know if he really wants to be a chef or anything. The whole group is really lacking in the whole long term goals thing, we're all about living in the now, getting wasted in the now. It was actually his house that I apparently passed out at and they all saw my demon form for the first time. I was super drunk and messy and turned into a demon and they cleaned up after me and took care of me and just kept accepting me as a demon... It's hard to believe how understanding and accepting they all are. They said I was "one of them now" but sometimes I think that if they knew about all the atrocities I committed before I was tame they wouldn't call me a friend anymore.)

(JC is someone Aed knew when I was trapped in him, and I met him again when I came to live with Croix because apparently JC works for Croix or something. Anyway, it was an awkward encounter given what happened last time, when he let me out of Aed, so… I guess we made up now, and stuff, because he likes keeping me around, and I don't really mind that or how he calls me Incubaby. We have way more in common than I ever would have thought: even though he's from the surface world, he was born an immortal, supernatural being, that of a vampire, and was marked as being evil, and even got trapped inside his brother like how I got trapped in Aed. He had to learn how to be good, and now he fits in and everyone likes him. I guess he's another role model for me. He also went through the trouble of taming me through exposure therapy and I'm able to be around sleeping surface-dwellers, which has improved my life drastically. JC has become a really important person to me.)

(After hearing his name come up several times, JC brought me to meet Maji. This is a very special surface-dweller, in my book. Enthusiastic, tireless, doesn't care that I'm a demon… A true fiend to match my own tendencies. It's no wonder I got a little out of hand the first time. It upset them and JC had to reprimand me, but I didn't mean to do it, Maji just re-awakened a part of me that I try to hide now for the sake of being good. I'm still an evil demon deep inside, and even though I didn't do anything but say some disturbing things, it weighs on me. They both forgave me and we talked about everything and why I'm like that, but it went to show JC that I need things like this in moderation, and probably with supervision…)

(JC brought me to meet Phinean as well. Very easygoing, chill mortal. Just as casual, no questions asked. Or minimal questions asked. I ended up telling him that I'm a demon and I'm happy that he was accepting and curious about it. Best part of all is that he has angel wings… fallen angel, corrupted angel… Whether he's a mortal or angel the result is the same: he played along with me and allowed me to indulge. I really wanted to take one of his feathers, but since I'm not supposed to be evil now, I'm not allowed to do stuff like that. Since then, I found out that he and JC went to the same gym that Chase started going to, and Phinean started coming onto Chase way too hard and I had to tell him to dial it back, which should really mean something coming from an incubus.)

(Zach is JC's husband, and Aed's dad. Though I never got to him when I was stuck in Aed, in the beginning I got the impression that our interactions were being rationed on account of me being an evil demon and all. JC is very protective of him and goes on and on about how much he loves the guy, but again I don't understand that stuff. I can't. Anyway, as reward for being tamed, I was finally allowed full access to him and his angel wings - after agreeing to copious rules and regulations. Though we don't meet up very much since then, but I guess it's becoming awkward since he's also Grymm's dad, and has taken on Croix as a son-in-law type thing. I guess it's something I can live without as I become good and manage my new surface-dweller relationships.)

(I don't actually know much about them, except that they're in Grymm's band, they're friends with Croix, and in this wolfpack thing that they invited me to... where they all turn into little animals and run around in the woods. Even though my animal form is a cat and not a canine at all, they accepted me into the group. There's a den and everything; we went in and laid down after all this crazy playing, but then sleep was starting to happen and I isolated myself outside. Everyone came out and gathered around me so I wasn't alone and it felt really good... It's a nice memory.)

(Luffy's also in Grymm's band, but not really part of the wolfpack as far as I know... But he is a drinker, to my delight, so he invited me and Croix to his house for drinks and chips and he was cool with us being in our demon forms... It was a whole lot different than the wolfpack stuff, we all just chatted a lot about our lives and everything. But then I got a bit too drunk and my roots started coming out... ended up switching to Demi to lure a mortal... was a bit obsessed with him for a bit. But I did end up catching him later, it was just a delayed reaction. So I conquer, and life goes on... buuut I don't mind if he wants me to visit again, because he is fun.)

(I don't know much about these two either, but they're part of the wolfpack... Actually I think Trig is the boss of it or something. I was just happy to be a part of it... After we played all crazy and went in the den, Trip fell asleep so I went outside to be alone. But then everyone came out and gathered around me... After that, Trig dug up a bunch of treats and even had cat treats for me. I just felt really included, I get emotional... whenever mortals accept me because I'm good and nice now.)

(Kaelis is my daughter Zin's boyfriend. After Zin found out about her demon heritage she shared what she learned with him, so it was obvious to him that I was a demon at that point, and he accepted me same as he did her. He's a dragon who makes stars, and apparently the weird pet-child thing of a vampire hunter, which made me scared cause Zin's also part vampire and I don't want her to be captured and hurt. He seemed nice but boy better not be playing the long game to gain her trust and bring her to the hunter... The side of me that no one wants to see will come out.)

(Snipes and Brick are Croix's mortal friends and work for him. Croix mentioned them a few times before they came to Croix's birthday party and that's when I met them. I still don't know a lot, especially about Brick, but eventually Croix came to me with this scheme for us to set up Snipes and Chase. It was an awesome plan and they turned out to be two peas in a pod, so now I get to learn about Snipes through Chase going on and on about his new boyfriend.)

(I know very little about this person, other than Aed, Zay, and Maji all know him. Apparently Aed and Zay knew him while I was still stuck in Aed, and it's possibly familiar, but... I think Zay knew him more back then, besides, that was around the time I was losing myself and forgetting how to talk. But apparently Zay is so close to him that she felt like it was okay to tell him that I was a demon without my knowledge... So I have no choice but to trust him. He's apparently a vampire, and not even from this planet, like Maji. Though, we did get along, he is quite, hmm, submissive.)

(Erik is Aed's angel-winged brother, so I knew him from when I was trapped. The things I did to him when I was stuck are worse than anything I did to anyone else, and I was tortured by the electric chains just to do the worst things I could. Recalling these events is stressful and traumatic to both of us. After I first came back to the surface, JC took me to visit him again, but he didn't know I was me. Seeing the evidence of what I did to him, and all this talk of how Erik tamed JC years and years ago, I was sad. I wanted to be tamed too. So I told him who I really was, and he rejected me. We were getting along just fine before that and I thought it could be enough to show that I've changed. He's the first person that I knew from back then who didn't forgive me, and trying to earn his forgiveness has been a horrible roller coaster. We've had such long discussions about what I am, who I was and who I am now, trying to make sense of what I did and come to an understanding, and for a while he seemed to flip back and forth on whether he actually accepted me or not. I found it very cruel that he would forgive me and later get mad all over again and take it all back for no apparent reason when I just wanted everyone to heal and move forward. I know that I can't make him just get over it, but it felt like he would rather keep wallowing in the past, over something healthier. I've tried so hard to provide closure, but no one understands what it's like to be a demon and to have done such terrible things without a second thought, and now to be tamed and know that I can never take back the things I did... It took so long, but finally he realized that his anger and unforgiveness was what was holding him back from healing and he let go of so much with so many people and he formally forgave me. I cried a lot from that, but we are far from besties and I think that Erik and I are really not good to be around each other too much, even as we try to move forward.)

(Knives is Erik's husband and JC's brother. I don't recall ever doing anything bad to Knives when I was trapped in Aed, so there's not necessarily a problem between us in that way - what I did to Erik is the problem. I understand that they're married but when I kept having to plead my case to Erik, he was there protecting him like I was some kind of threat. He did lighten up and have sympathy for me and my struggles and kinda stood up for me when Erik was being too mean. I think that he tries to be fair and neutral, but ended up enabling Erik's unhealthy wallowing in anger for too long... Thankfully he's the one who got Erik to realize that his anger controlled him and the reason he couldn't move on and heal was because he wouldn't forgive anyone. Me and Aed both tried to tell Erik that before but... Whatever works... Things are still pretty tense even though everyone's moving on, but it's not like we're going to hang out.)

(First appearing as my daughter Zin's teddy bear, Senil turned out to be none other than an imp possessing it. Everyone found out when she came to stay with me and Croix and she brought the Senil bear and Grymm looked in the Devil Book and said it was an imp. We interrogated it best we could. Even Aed and Zay had to come over and see the imp and the visitation felt spoiled. Imps don't live on the surface but this one does and it spends its life being a teddy bear for some reason. It wouldn't say if it was good or not, but Zin begged us to leave it alone because it's her friend. It's a bit of an intruder when I'm trying to bond with my child.)

(Shadow was my special creation, my first and only friend when I was new and working as a Sin. With the power to control shadows, I was able to bring my own shadow to life. He was like my twin, he liked everything I liked, he was always there to support and agree with me. Everything changed when I was imprisoned in Aed, and I had to use Shadow in a different way. Manipulating him was the only way I could still affect and do things outside of Aed, and being an evil, enraged demon, I used him to do further evil. When I was separated from Aed, and demoted from being a Sin, I lost my powers, and I haven't seen Shadow since then. Sometimes I ask my shadow to see if he's there, but he never is, and it never moves on its own anymore.)

(I was created as a fully-grown creature of evil, ready to do the Devil's bidding. I was born an Incubus, and like all other Incubi and Succubae, the Devil cut my heart out before calling me done. New and optimistic, I was made into a prince, the Sin of Lust. I was released into the mortal world to fill my quota, making mortals lust for each other – and I had no problem getting this done. Quota filled, go home to Hell, rinse and repeat month after month. But being an Incubus at my core, I started to wonder what would happen if I made the mortals lust for me instead. After finding out, I had what I thought was endless indulgence; the Devil didn't like the new way I was filling quota, but I continued to disobey. So that day Aed made a deal with him, the Devil decided to kill two birds with one stone and he imprisoned me. Years later, I returned to Hell to get separated, and I went… as mortals put it, "apeshit". I did something every demon probably dreams of doing but none have the gall to do… and I attacked him relentlessly. I broke his forcefield, attacked him directly, and snapped his staff in the process. He separated me and Aed and demoted me from a Sin so that I didn't work for him anymore. I'm shocked that he let me go alive after all that, and needless to say I don't really want to see him again and feel like I'm living as a fugitive. Though I still dream of revolution…)

(I assume all these guys are still working. I don't actually know too much about the other Sins, it's not like we hung out or anything, we only ever saw each other at the Sin meetings. I sat next to Gluttony - real big fat demon, but I guess you would be if you ate that much too. The others are pretty stereotypical of their Sin too from what I can tell - I'm pretty sure Sloth learned to sleep in the meetings with his eyes open, Wrath's all about violence, Envy resents everyone for what they have, and Pride... Pride is the worst. Pride is the Devil's favorite, he's a total suck-up snitch, and all we ever heard during the Sin meetings was how great Pride was and how the rest of us sucked. Croix told me that Pride was especially mean to him and sent his imps to harass him... Makes me mad, but I can't do anything, even though Grymm beat the Devil and won the control of all the Sins so that she could own and protect Croix.)

(I really really really really hate him! Had the absolute displeasure of meeting my replacement... I could have gone on never meeting him or caring to, but for some reason, he decided that he would randomly show up in my territory. In the news I heard reports of cruel night attacks and knew it had to be one of my kind... But why'd it have to be the worst of the worst? I'm the incubus that roams this area, these are my mortals, I protect and take care of them, and then he comes here as a threat to their safety, to Zay's safety! I cried to Grymm about it and she asserted her dominance as the new Sin boss by getting Lust in a personal meeting and banning him from my territory. She brought me and Croix along to watch, but meeting him freaked me out. For some reason he wanted to know my demon name. Does he want to find me? Does he want revenge? He didn't know that I was the previous Lust, but who's to say we didn't know each other before, we're from the same circle after all...)